Category: Ramblings

Holiday · Ramblings · RANDOM · Sarcasm

Happy Thanksgiving!

Tracy4 Comments

Thanksgiving is tomorrow, what are you thankful for? Are you thankful for family, friends, wealth, or health? [if you have any of those things] 😛

Well, here is my take on Thanksgiving… [read at your own risk]

Columbus discovers America. [didn’t know you could discover a place already inhabited] He sent word home to send more people over. It’s a great land. More people come, but ‘uh oh’, they start dying from starvation, cold, disease. The people, who already lived here, [Indians] step in and teach the people to hunt, grow fields, keep warm, etc. Well, WOO HOO, send more people over we are saved!!

The people [white man, pilgrims] are thankful and [supposedly according to the history books] throw a feast fit for Kings. Thanksgiving!! [thanks for giving?] All is good in the World… for a little while.

I guess it is true, survival of the fittest, only the strong survive, etc. Well the ‘people’ were so thankful that eventually their greed took over and they decided they wanted the land all to themselves. Now they showed their thanks by slaughtering a culture of people. [Indians]  hmmmm just doesn’t sound right to me. But hey, isn’t that how it’s always been. We go in and take what we want. They gave, the people took. And they/we call it Indian giving…

To sum it up, we [people] came over, started to croak. They [Indians] came to our aid and saved us. [people] In the end we [people] showed our thanks by giving some land to them [Indians, when it was their land first] then took it back [And they/we call it Indian giving] and killed them [Indians] so we could have the land all to ourselves.

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I know this isn’t your typical Thanksgiving blog and sorry if it offends anyone. [not] I guess we can get past the true history of the Holiday and give thanks for the now and what we have. I am thankful for my family and friends, everyday, not just on Thanksgiving. To me, it’s just another day in the year, a day we can outwardly acknowledge our thanks. But, at what cost…

Happy Thanksgiving…

PEACE!

Happiness · Holiday · Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · RANDOM

I ‘got’ an Epiphanie!!

Tracy6 Comments

No, I didn’t ‘have’ an epiphanie, I got one. An Epiphanie camera bag that is.

My Canon camera bag is nice, but let’s face it, it’s more of a ‘man’ bag. It’s big and bulky and very hard to get in and out of. Being in a wheelchair it’s very hard to carry around along with my purse, phone, and well you know! lol

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From the Epiphanie FB page:

Our mission is to save cameras from being banged around in purses, while liberating stylish women photographers from the Manbag.

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Being in a wheelchair, the Epiphanie Bag is the solution for me! I can put the strap cross-body and lie it in my lap. It will be easy access AND carry all my other necessities of life. I’ll finally be able to have my camera with me. I cannot wait for it to arrive. The biggest and only problem I had on the site was deciding which one to buy! lol It took me over an hour. My daughter Ashley was the tie breaker.

The winner is:

Ginger in black

I did my research as well. There are ‘other’ bags [which will remain nameless] similar to this, but the comments and posts I read in forums, came right back to Epiphanie.

I must also thank my friend and fabulous photographer, Jen, for sharing the link to Epiphanies FB page.

I highly recommend checking out Epiphanie and joining their FB page if you are a female photographer looking for a new and stylish way to carry all your camera needs. Now, we do not want to leave the men out in the cold as there are many men who are secure in their identities that may love these as well. 😀

Drop on by, check them out, and tell ’em Tracy sent you! 😉

So there you have it… I GOT an Epiphanie!!!

Peace out!

PS: The Lyric in yellow and Lola in red I love as well. *hint hint* family and friends!! 😛

Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · Stupid Stuff

The Tysabri Journey

Tracy8 Comments

I had my fourth infusion of Tysabri today. One side effect is Progressive multifocal leukoencephalopathy (PML), which may cause death. I thought that if you made it through the first infusion and didn’t have any problems with is effect, that it was a mute point. Today I was told I need to get the test to see if I have PML. Just because I have not contracted it yet doesn’t mean I wont. 1 out of 200 people with PML and on Tysabri, could die.

uh WTF!

Kind of wish I knew THESE stats earlier. I’ll be having the test next month when I see my neuro, and am having some blood work done this week to check and make sure the Tysabri is not harming any internal organs.

So far nothing seems different. Again, I know it can take 6 months to one to see anything, but I want it now!! If I do not see or feel any difference in the 6 months, I’m done. Not worth all the risks for something that may not help. So, we shall see.

I have said all I expect and/or want from this is to be able to drive again and hold my bladder. Now, with all the risks, I want it all!!! 😛

Love and Light!

HELL · PAIN · Ramblings · Sarcasm · Stupid Stuff

It figures!!

Tracy6 Comments

Obviously I’ve had a crappy time lately. DOH! 😛 So this morning i pulled my ‘big girl’ panties on… really I did. Wouldn’t you know it I get the headache from Hell and my back is killing me. [had a little fall] Seriously!! Makes me wonder what the fuck I did in a previous life! rofl

It's really not...

And now, to top it off, INSOMNIA yet again. So off to take some meds [yeehaw] and hopefully sleep will come… eventually!!

Peace out!

Anger · FUCK · Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · RANDOM · Sarcasm

Lost and all alone…

Tracy8 Comments

Well, I’m still here. Not in a blogging mood lately. Hard to type and I get so jumbled that nothing comes out right. I’m just glad that I’m fantastic when it comes to ‘acting’ happy. I’m so tired of all the, ‘life is good’. ‘you are in control’, and blah blah blah. MS took away my ‘control’. Please don’t tell me it could be worse, as it is getting worse. I’m sure others hate their illness just like I hate mine. I think boredom sets in and i get depressed. Unless you live in my ‘chair’ in the prison that is my home, you cannot understand. Being trapped like a caged animal is paralyzing…

I know some of my friends know this feeling as they are in the same boat as me. I try to find the good and be upbeat. I can tell you that it takes a ton of energy to do that. I’m so tired of fighting this battle.

that be me...

 If I sound bitter, it’s because I am bitter. Life is NOT good… no always. Some of us fight struggles that no one can ever comprehend. Those are the ones that usually say ‘it could be worse’. **F bomb alert** Well fuck them. Their biggest problem is a job they hate or the sniffles. If I sound bitter, it’s because I am bitter. And as for prayers, do NOT get me started. My girl Ruby and I were told if we prayed right we would be healed!! Well hot damn, I’m on my fucking knees. I have no problem for those why want to pray for me… just don’t be surprised when it doesn’t work.

Hopefully this’tude’ will pass soon. It usually does. But, I’m not going to feel bad for being pissed, angry or bitter anymore. There are some that make me feel like I should just ‘get over it’! To you I say, ‘Let’s trade lives.’ To anyone out there dealing with chronic illness and any of these feelings, just know it IS ok to feel this way and vent. Do not let anyone make you feel bad if you do. Until they walk, err roll, a mile in my [our] chairs they can just STFU!!

Peace out!

Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · RANDOM

In Sickness and in Health

Tracy13 Comments

Dedicated to my husband…
When I heard this song by Chris Medina and watched the video of his beautiful lady, I knew this song was meant for my hubby.
I was diagnosed with MS three years into our marriage, right after the birth of our twins. Now wheelchair bound with many other issues due to the MS, my husband stays by my side.
I am one of the blessed ones…

Love · PAIN · Ramblings

R.I.P. Sweet Sadie!

Tracy6 Comments

Over twelve years ago we brought Sadie into our home. I was in a Petco looking for kitty litter and there she was. She was being adopted out. They said she was around two and had been found dumped way out in the desert. She was a skinny, goofy looking lil girl. She reminded me of a newborn foal with long skinny legs and huge paws. She had Shepard, Chow and Chesapeake Retriever in her. [heinz 57 I say] She fit in our family like a glove. Over night she grew up into an 80 pound big girl. She was our protector and our friend.

Sadie loved being outside and would sit in the middle of the lawn in the pouring rain or the 100 degree heat. She was the pack leader.

What I will remember most about her, is that she was gentle and a big love bug. She was and will always be close to my heart. She will be coming home again to sit next to Beau and Emmy on my mantle.

She is now free and no longer in pain. She can run again and I’m sure she is already chasing Beau. I know he met her at the bridge. She is forever young again.

We love you Sadie and miss you so very much. You will be forever in our hearts…

RIP sweet girl!

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Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Their bright eyes are intent; Their eager body quivers. Suddenly he/she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, their legs carrying him/her faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

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