Posts Tagged ‘blogging’

Really, why do we? Why do so many put their thoughts and emotions out the for the world to ‘read’? For me, it breaks the monotony of my daily bed-ridden life. It allows me to bitch, if you will, at the world and not my family. lol I have a story, it may not be much to some, but it’s my life. I hope that in some small way others in my position can find some hope, or at least have a laugh.

Even in my more depressing blogs, I think it helps others to know they are not alone. It’s ok to cry, scream, and lose it… once in a while. 🙂 We don’t always have to ‘hold’ it together and be strong every second. Sometimes a good cry is cleansing for the soul, and I’m talking ugly crying! lol

I also hope to bring awareness to others on how we can fight back against those who try to hurt us. Hospital treatment and the treatment we sometimes have to endure by big companies, i.e.; Insurance Companies, and big Pharma. We have to be tough and find our inner strength so these people do not run over us like we are nothing.

We are the strong. We deal with more in one day than most deal with in their lifetime. We smile through the pain, the losses, and the inhumanity of some. So believe it, we are the true Warriors!!

There are days I want to give up. There was a time, not long ago, I tried… When I awoke I was angry, I wanted to be free. Then I realized, maybe I am here for a reason. If I am able to help even just one person, maybe that’s why I am still here. I’ll be honest, the thoughts linger in my head every day. I fight like hell to never let them ‘almost’ get me again. It has nothing to do with any God or higher power. It’s my will, my power and inner child that keeps me going. We all have the inner child of strength. I truly hope you can find yours and hold on tight.

Love and Light to all

I’ve just recently started blogging again. It’s helping me with trying to end the monotony that is my life. While I hope people read and maybe take something away from my blogs, I really do this for me. It helps get those nagging thoughts out of my head. I know my blogs may sometimes be depressing, but that comes with life and MS.

New news, Home Depot is sending Jerry [new guy] to fix the lil’ latch/clip that broke the first day. Did Briana call me, of course not. Passing the buck again!

I did get some good advice. A ‘friend’ told me to get the license numbers of the contractors they hired. I am also going to get an estimate of the stucco damage they caused all around the windows and doors. Their workers also lost a few of my window house alarm magnets. Will be getting an estimate for those as well.

Since the time of Mark Nord, they’ve been talking compensation for all they’ve put us through. Briana said she’d be talking to Mark about it. Right, the guy that blew me off for months then sent Briana my way. She and I have lots to discuss after tomorrow. Fraud, lies, rudeness, just don’t!!

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Peace out my peeps!!

1. Do you get and idea then think it out and write your blog?

2. Do you write the blog, save the draft, and then edit before publishing it?

3. Or do you just fly by the seat of your pants and just blog?

I’m a 3. I get so many thoughts going at any given time I just start typing and whatever ends up on the page, is my blog. My iBot blog started out as something completely different, and just took on a whole new meaning. I am your typical type ‘A’ personality. I have a bit of ‘B’ as well, but lean more towards ‘A’. For better or for worse that is me.

From Wikipedia:

Type A individuals can be described as impatient, time-conscious, concerned about their status, highly competitive, ambitious, business-like, aggressive, having difficulty relaxing; and are sometimes disliked by individuals with Type B personalties for the way that they’re always rushing. They are often high-achieving workaholics who multi-task, drive themselves with deadlines, and are unhappy about delays. Because of these characteristics, Type A individuals are often described as “stress junkies.”Type A individuals can be described as impatient, time-conscious, concerned about their status, highly competitive, ambitious, business-like, aggressive, having difficulty relaxing. Because of these characteristics, Type A individuals are often described as “stress junkies.”

So according to that, basically I dislike myself for always rushing! lol

Now, i have slowed a bit on some of the traits, due to my illness. But, I still find that I thrive on pressure, stress if you will. I actually call friends at times to ‘talk me down’ from going after someone who is, well for lack of a better phrase, pissing me off. Sometimes people ASSume I am not an educated woman. I learned when I started using the WC more people talked to and treated me differently. My legs may not not work and I may have other health issues, but I am still a College educated, intelligent woman. But, I refuse to have a battle of wit with and unarmed person!! 😛

I think is this is where the mind goes racing and thoughts and ideas come rushing out. It has a lot to do with my sleeping issues as my mind will not shaddup. As you can see, I tend to ump back and forth and all over as I do not want to miss a thing. When I want something done I want it done now. Not late, not in an hour, but now. I am still working hard on becoming less of the ‘A’ as it can cause me a lot of fatigue. But for the years before my illness this was me. I could multi-task better than anyone. I thrived on difficult problems as I knew I could do it better and quicker. Now, the times they have a changed!

This, for me is a learning process. I know my faults and need to work on them. I need to relax and realize whatever needs to be done, will get done. It may take a bit longer, but it will happen. For me I get stressed as I know I have so much to offer, yet no way to do it. But, for those who do know me, they know in the end I will figure it out and get it going.

For some this is probably a mindless blog, hence the category mindless thoughts. But this has been floating all over my brain for a bit and here it. It’s a thought process for me and helps me to see the areas I may need to work on and by going back over my blogs I can see where my mind is at the time.

I guess the bottom line is, it’s my blog and I can write if I want to!! rofl

Blessings and Peace!