I feel I owe explanation of what’s going on with me. In August when I was denied rehab my heart broke and my mind fractured. When I got the explanation￼ of benefits for the ambulance ride that was denied I felt completely betrayed. Jason Sweeney the executive at Independence Blue Cross, ￼gave me those names of those companies to take me. Then after I was taken to my doctors he explained they don’t cover that Service.￼￼￼ I have a very hard time dealing with incompetence and stupidity. And now I’m having a very hard time continuing to live the way I do.
I no longer want to exist. Let me explain when I mean by that, I can no longer live trapped in this bed for another six years, another 20 years. The pain I suffer on a daily basis is enough to make me want to leave this earth. I came very close two days ago to leaving.￼￼ Moving my toes hurts, raising my arms hurts. It’s as if there is no end in sight. ￼￼As of right now I can barely even move my arms. Thank the universe for talk text.￼￼￼ I think that’s when it all came to a head.
Now I will backtrack a little bit to maybe help explain more of what’s happened to me in the last two years.￼
In February 2018 I came to the conclusion that I did not want to live. In that instance I called an ambulance and said I needed help￼.￼ To make a long story short they got me help. They got me in the acute rehabilitation center at Palmdale regional. For one month I was there and I was getting better. But Independence Blue Cross decided they didn’t need to be there anymore so they kicked me to the curb. A couple times in-home therapy came but unfortunately he rarely showed up and when he did, he did nothing.
August 2019 we were trying to transfer me for a shower we got me in my Hoyer lift and the pain was so bad I thought I had broken another bone in my back since I already have two fractures. Thankfully there were no breaks but while I was at Palmdale regional Medical Center we tried getting me back into rehab there. Independence Blue Cross denied the request even though a￼ previous they approved it.￼￼￼￼
So this doesn’t go on till the end of time, here and here are more of the backstory of trying to get into Palmdale regional medical center.￼
I will be sending this along with my denial letters (with highlighted comments and lies from Independence Blue Cross) ￼and other correspondence to anyone who will listen. LA Times, NBC, CBS, ABC, Oprah, Montel Williams, Ellen, anyone that would like a good story on how insurance companies knowingly and willingly￼willingly kill The people that rely on their care￼. I will also be doing research on how many people have perished because of Independence Blue Cross.￼￼￼￼
But again, I will not live another six years in this bed. Understand that as you will, but I am not living already. I’ve been dead inside for six years.
Have courage and be kind.￼￼