Chris Medina – What Are Words

August 29, 2011August 29, 2011 Tracy4 Comments

This is an amazing song of true love and commitment! A very special meaning to me…

Chris Medina is my new Idol!

2011 American Idol castoff Chris Medina – the guy who touched everyone’s hearts and possibly made us shed a little tear with his heartbreaking love story about his girlfriend who currently suffers from brain injury due to a car accident – is the first example of the new partnership between American Idol and Universal Music Group. Chris Medina has been given the opportunity to release his debut single online. “What Are Words” which hit iTunes on February 24th is a beautiful ballad, inspired in his AI story, written by Rodney “Darkchild” Jerkins.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
And I’m gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I’m forever keeping my angel close.

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Love and Light!

Anger · Love · Ramblings

Help Save “Halfway to Home” Dog Rescue!

August 25, 2011August 25, 2011 Tracy1 Comment

Please take a moment and watch the video below:

The video explains the peril that Halfway to Home is going through.

I have personal experience with this rescue. My good friend Courtney is a volunteer and two of my ‘fur-kids’ are HWTH rescues. If not for Suzanne and her NO KILL rescue, they would have perished either on the street or by the High Kill shelters. I can not imagine life without them.

dexcharlie4 — Dexter and Charlie, my babies!

The dogs at this NO KILL shelter are taken care of with the highest level of love and compassion. They are clean, well fed, up to date on shots, and always spayed or neutered. This is a travesty of justice.

This rescue, Halfway to Home, helps the County and State by taking some of the burden off of the High Kill Shelters. HWTH is a highly respected rescue and has been a #1 rescue at PetSmart. I am so confused as to how and why anyone could NOT renew their permit. It sickens me to think of all the dogs that will now die in the streets or in the shelters due to this irresponsible decision. I truly hope this decision is re-thought out and that their permit is renewed. How anyone with a heart could do this is beyond my thinking. All I have to do is look into my HWTH rescue dog’s eyes to know this non-renewal decision is truly wrong and inhumane. Is this really what Kern County wants to be known for? I hope not…

Please share the video above, donate to Halfway to Home, let these amazing people and doggies know they are loved.

THOSE WHO WANT TO DO MORE are urged to e-mail a message to The Animal Control Commission at animalcontrolcommission@co.kern.ca.us. Lorelei Oviatt, Director of Planning & Community Development Department at LoreleiO@co.kern.ca.us. Scott Denney, Planning Operations Division Chief at ScottD@co.kern.ca.us. Lorine Vasquez, Planner 2 at VasquezL@co.kern.ca.us.

PLEASE help!

Love and Light, Tracy

Family · Love · Movies · Ramblings · RANDOM

My fabulously fun and exhausting week…

June 29, 2011June 29, 2011 Tracy13 Comments

The week started on June 18th. We began our week long vacation to 20 Oaks Cottages and RV Park. We met my parental units in Fresno to break up the long drive. Hung out at the hotel Saturday night and left for Clearlake early Sunday morning. We arrived at Steve’s and my sister Kim’s park around 2 pm. This vacation was also a bit of a family reunion. I had not seen my sister Kim for 6 years or my cousins for 18 years. [since my wedding] We all did the hugs and introductions and all that mushy stuff then went to see the lake.

It turned out to be unusually hot for this time of year. [figures] The first two days I went outside and hung by the dock to watch my kids go tubing and swim. It sucked that I was not able to get to the boat or even get in the water, but watching my kids have a blast made it okay. The heat finally got to me and my legs swelled up something fierce. By Wednesday I could not go outside during the day anymore. So pretty much slept that day away. This trip was definitely kicking my ass… but it was a good ass kicking and completely worth it! lol

There are over 200 photos from our trip. It gave me something to do with my cool camera! lol

We left Thursday and headed back to Fresno for the Hotel stay. It was hard leaving the paradise that is is Clearlake, but we had to head home. We left the hotel early Friday for home. It was good to be home, but I missed my family.

BUT, my fabulous week was not over yet. My baby sister and her BF, Don, were coming to visit Saturday. This would be a perfect ending to a perfect week. I got to see my sisters and my brother at the lake and now my baby sister as well. We bbq’ and had salad and tasty asparagus and cookies and ice cream! YUM! We watched Battle Los Angeles. Basically it’s Independence Day with a few changes. Independence Day is a much better movie, but Battle LA gave us a few giggles. All in all it was a great end to a great week!

This week I am paying for all the fun I had, but it really is soooo worth it. My kids had a blast, hubby caught the only fish [was then released], got to see family, took pictures, and for the first time in a looooong time felt some ‘quality’ in my life! It doesn’t get any better than that!

Love · RANDOM

Gone but not forgotten!!

April 29, 2011 Tracy2 Comments

Don’t breed or buy while shelter animals die!

Family · Hope · Love · RANDOM

Sisters missing a brother they never got to know…

January 1, 2011January 1, 2011 Tracy6 Comments

Can you help, will you help…

This is a link to their story. Sisters seek brother who was adopted in 1971

I know there are times that maybe adoptees do not want to be found. I do not believe this is one of those times. I feel, in my heart, that he would love to know how missed and loved he has been for so long.

This is a New Year, one that I hope will bring a family back together. Siblings are the most important part of a family unit. Let’s help these sisters find this piece of the puzzle that has been missing for so long.

Happiness · Health · Love · Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · Sarcasm

Bringing in 2011

December 31, 2010December 31, 2010 Tracy8 Comments

I haven’t blogged much as of late… not much to say.

This past year has been one of those roller-coaster rides you just want to get off. A not-so-fabulous hellish hospital stay, a few bad MS months, the waiting for the shower to be done, and just normal FML things.

But…

There is also the roller-coaster rides you never want to end. The love and support shown during and after my hellish hospital stay and during the bad MS months. Thanks to a couple of Angels, we are debt free and finally getting caught up. [so hoping the other shoe does not drop] I know, pessimism at its finest. I’m trying, lol

This year has also brought true friendships to light and I am so blessed with them. And yes, you know who you are.

I have no resolutions as I never keep them. I just hope for my MS to slow down before it puts me in a home. But, if the home is in an asylum, I might find it kind of cool. Free meds… need I say more. Wonder if they have wireless access…

So, I really don’t have much to say yet again.

I just wanted to wish all my family, friends, and anyone who needs a wish, A very happy and wonderful 2011. May all your dreams come true.

One lil thing too, remember to be a bit kinder and caring to those who may be struggling in their life. We never know what smiles may be hiding…

Happiness · Love · RANDOM

Boots…

August 14, 2010August 14, 2010 Tracy16 Comments

Whether in a wheel-chariot or not I can still have nice shoes. Boots are my ultimate kind of footwear. I’ve had people ask why I need to buy new shoes. REALLY, Why not? Why do you buy makeup when nothing can fix your ugly? My shoes/boots/sandals stay nice, and I may be in a chair but my feet can still look good. I like to feel pretty like everyone does. I rock a wheel-chariot.

So, I’ve been keeping my eyes on some new boots for Fall. I wanted suede and wanted a square toe. Found an awesome boot by La Canadienne called the Janie boot. They are originally 259. Zappos had them for 196. I found them for 141.50. I’m the ultimate online sales shopper. I usually do not spend over 100.00 on boots, except for my UGG’s, but this was a great deal for a great boot.

Drumroll please…..

La Canadienne Janie Boot — Hubba Hubba!!

Blessings and Hope!!

Family · Health · Love · PAIN

Out of sorts!

August 9, 2010August 9, 2010 Tracy8 Comments

Do you ever have those days when you know you have something to do or need to do something but just can’t find the oomph? I’m there. The past few days had been not the best MS days and kind of overly fatigued. I know it will pass, but I want it to pass like yesterday.

My bff aka sister form another mister contacted me to let me know her mama [who I think of as a mom] is not doing well and her Cancer has returned with a vengeance. I’m so numb and cannot imagine what my bff is going through. Mama Jo is one one the finest ladies I have ever known. My mom lived far away and she was like my surrogate mom. She took me in as one of her own. I want to be able to be there for my girl and mama Jo, but this damn MS keeps me immobile. I should be in the car driving out there to be with Liz and flying back with her if needed. I can’t and I feel helpless. No matter what went on in her life she always had a smile for others and a kind word. Please keep them all in your thoughts, prayers, blessings, whatever it is you do. If there ever needed to be a miracle, it should be for her.

I just hope they can control her pain so she doesn’t suffer at all. She is one the strongest women you will ever meet, a fighter. I love you mama Jo!!

So, ya, it’s been one of those days. Can’t seem to function. Please keep Liz, Will, and Ted in your thoughts, prayers and/or blessings as well. Her children love her so!

Blessings and Hope!

Love · Ramblings · RANDOM · Silly

The Parental units…

June 12, 2010June 12, 2010 Tracy5 Comments

My dad and sm Cheryl came down yesterday as a stop over before heading to my sister Kim’s lake resort, 20 Oaks Cottages . They brought their lil puppy, Reilly, and he and Dexter had a blast. [they always do]

And here’s a lil video of their love!! lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1X9FHLZDStY

I’m so excited as I got my juicer, A Breville.

Roger and Cheryl went to Trader Joe’s and then to Bed Bath and Beyond. Cheryl got this for us. How cool is that. I have a gr8 step-parental unit. We can’t wait to make fresh, healthy juices. No more store bought preservatives for us. YAY!!

They left this morning, and now my Dexter baby is crushed. He keeps going to the front window and door and cries for Reilly. It’s so pathetic. 😛 My poor baby. He doesn’t even want to go outside with his ‘sister’ and ‘brother’ doggies. Oh well, he’ll get over it eventually. 😉

Now we are getting the above ground pool [15 footer] all ready for the summer. Today will be a long day. Get the pool going, Sam’s Club, pool supply store, and get some cooking done. I can’t wait. Keeping busy is helping me tons. I will not over do it though, as I want to keep this feeling for a long time. I’m out!

Blessings and Hope!

Anger · Fear · Hope · Love · Multiple Sclerosis · PAIN · Ramblings

Epiphany? Wicked wake up call…

June 5, 2010June 6, 2010 Tracy30 Comments

It all started with an email from my hubby that had me in tears. I knew it was time to take it, my life, back from my illness[s]. He is suffering emotionally and physically due to my illness. I finally realized that once upon a time, I said I would not let my disease[s] take me over. I realize now, I have done just that. I have literally stopped trying and have been letting it all take me away from me. Almost like I am laying down to die. The ‘why bother’, the ‘who cares anyway’. This person is NOT me! I am and have always been a fighter. I do not give up on things. It may take me a bit to finish certain things in my life, but I will finish them in the end. I am no quitter.

I have Primary Progressive MS, spastic colon, incontinence, degenerative disc disorder, prone to anxiety attacks, depression [sometimes severe], esophagus issues, pain, tremors, and too many little things that come with all this to mention. BUT, I can work with some of these. Food is my biggest enemy. Gluten, soy, dairy, certain veges and seed items are bad for Autoimmune disorders. They can cause terrible problems for me. Processed foods, and fake sugars and fake fats are bad as well. I know this and almost 2 years ago I changed my lifestyle and cut out the crap foods and learned to eat the right way. No supplement drinks, pills, or ‘fake’ foods. I lost over 20 pounds and felt great. No, it did not make me walk again, no it did not cure me, but it sure helped my overall emotional self. My stomach issues all about disappeared. My fatigue lessened. I still had my not so great days, bu they were much fewer.

So WTF happened?? I gave up. I gave in. I got down one day and let it take me over and went back to my old habits. Gained the weight back and all the good things that happened faded. I could not find my way back. Now, I am not saying this was a bad thing or even that I won’t have bad days again. I am saying that I am going to work at getting ME back. Fighting this wicked disease that has crippled me and do everything I can TO find my way back.

And it all began from the email from my hubby. He loves me, completely and true. But, he started losing himself. Sadness and fear overtook him. The worry for me was killing him. I was letting my disease kill me slowly. I was not seeing what it was doing to him and my children. I was lost in my MS. I knew as I read that letter that I needed to take a stand against my MS. I got up and got my ass over to me motorized pedaler and got to work. I lifted my small weights and am slowly getting back to eating the way humans are supposed to eat. Not the way the BS food industry says we should eat. They do not care about us, they care about selling shit food to us and making money off of us. NO more.

Will I slip? Will I have bad days ahead? Will I lose myself again? Maybe! But that’s ok. It’s all about baby steps.

Baby steps here…

to be continued…