Monthly Archives: March 2010

March 25, 2010

Losing my mind!!

By Tracy

Aha, got your attention! lol Actually my facebook status from their status shuffle says it all:

Lil’ ole’ me has lost my mind and doesn’t know where to find it, I’ll leave it alone, hoping it will come home, dragging my brain beside it!

I love it and it is so me!!

Things are going pretty good. Being back on Etsy is gr8. I made 2 sales, ty Frannie and Tina, and actually feel like making new things again. It gets me out of my room at least. I still am not feeling the ‘outside’ world yet since my hell stay, but baby steps ya know!

Awaiting return calls from some attorneys, but I think they are afraid of taking on the hospital. So, have some calls today to outside attorneys. You would think they [hospital liaison] would at least call to check in on how things are going, since they told me to keep themapprised on the bills. Ya, RIGHT!! lol They want me to forget, not happening.

My kids are off school for spring break. The girls get 2 weeks, the boy gets one. It’s actually been nice so far. Friends coming and going, so they are not bored. Bored kids are annoying kids. lol So keeping them busy is a gr8 thing. Austin went to Magic Mountain yesterday. FUN! He said he had a blast!

wheeeeeeeee

I love coasters!!! Woo Hoo!!

Hope everyone is having a great day/night wherever you may be!!

Blessings and Hope!

10 comments   |  tags: , , , | posted in health, healthcare, HELL, Holiday, Hospital, jewelry, mindless-thoughts, Ramblings, RANDOM

March 23, 2010

A Fabulous Flair’s new location

By Tracy

A Fabulous Flair is now back on Etsy!! It was my first home and it did me well! Don’t fix it if it ain’t broke! lol

Added some new things today and some old:

PinkyI will be adding new pieces weekly if I am able. I am very happy to be back on Etsy.

I still have my other site for my Recycles . Right now I have a gr8 beginners flute available with lots of accessories that go with it.

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I want to wish a very happy 21st Birthday to Amanda Eldridge as well. So wish i could have been there to celebrate this day with you. Know that I was there in spirit!! Hope you had a couple of drinks for me!!

the BIG 21

The BIG 21

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Also on a good note, I got my first Living Dead Doll, Jasper:

Jasper - Series 14

I know, I know, a bit creepy but so cool!! lol

Anywho, hope everyone is having a great day/evening wherever you may be!

Blessings and Hope!!

5 comments   |  tags: , , , | posted in Celebration, hope, jewelry, mindless-thoughts, Ramblings, shopping

March 22, 2010

Life is good – Randomosity

By Tracy

It’s all in how you look at it really.

As many of you have read, I spilled wax on my favorite pair of UGG slippers that were given to me as a gift from an ‘inspiring’ woman. No one can remove the wax. It was too much and too deep in the sheepskin. So, my heart was broken. Today, a Zappos box came. Inside were a new pair of UGG slippers. The only difference is the color. My husband ordered them for me when he realized the others could not be saved. I was so socked as my hubby is awesome, but never thought he would do this. He thinks my shoes fetish is nutzzz. lol I was also a tad sad as my other pair are from someone I so adore. I will not throw them out. I packed them back in their box and am hoping that at some point there will be something to clean them.

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Last week I actually got new pieces on my site A Fabulous Flair . Since my Hospital stay I have hibernated in my room. So, I pulled up my bootstraps and created! It felt so good to get something done and finished.

Brownie Blues

One of my new pieces. I just love the brown and blue together! If you find something you like, mention my blog and get 10% off.

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I also have gone through the break-up of a friendship. I have come to the realization that her ‘throwing’ me away was the best thing ever! I feel so much more positive and that old adage, ‘a weight was taken off my shoulders’. It is true, once toxic is gone, you feel so much better. The negativity is gone, the back stabbing and back talking is gone. I always felt so drained after speaking with her. Now, I am full! So, I guess I should say thanks. I wish her the best of everything and hope she can truly find her peace.

PEACE!

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I would like to ask you all for prayers today. A good friend, BFF Kat, needs some good thoughts, blessings, prayers whatever you do. She had to put her doggy down last week which was so hard for her. Then she had to have some tests done. Something in the test was found and she has to go back for additional testing. Please keep her in your heart for a good outcome. She is an amazing friend, mommy, and wife. I feel in my heart it will be ok, but extra blessings can never hurt!! I loves ya my mini-me!!

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Blessings and Hope!

15 comments   |  tags: , , , , , | posted in friendship, HELL, Hospital, love, mindless-thoughts, Ramblings, RANDOM

March 18, 2010

To all the spammers…

By Tracy

Yes, you know who you are. Stop trying to comment to my colonoscopy blog with your colon blow products. Not getting approved!! And soon i will report you.

And for those who come in with your snoring pillows [on my stop snoring blog] etc saying that my blog is not opening right for you. rofl You are not going to be approved either. You are spam. It does give me laugh though, so thanks for that.

But, please stop, as I really hate reporting people to WordPress.

Blessings and Hope!

8 comments   |  tags: | posted in Ramblings, RANDOM, SPAMMERS, stupid_stuff

March 17, 2010

Taking a shower…

By Tracy

ALONE!! lol I have been trying to find the perfect ‘bathroom’ for my crippled butt. :-P Had a few ideas, but wow they were either really time consuming or way tooooooo expensive. So, today while surfing the net for more ideas I came across those bathtubs for people who need a lil help entering and exiting etc. Well they have a new style now.

The shower series: http://premier-bathrooms.com/showers/

cool beans

open door

This would fit in our existing shower area:

out with the old

With the new one there is no step up, the doors open out of the way so no maneuvering around them. There is a built in shower chair  that folds up for space when not needed by me. Handrails, easy access shower heads and the list goes on. So, basically, it’s perfect.

woo hoo

Not sure on the cost, so put a call in for an estimate. Pray it’s not too way out there for us. This could be the answer to my dreams!!

**crossing fingers**

Maybe, the luck of the Irish will help me today!! HAPPY ST. PATRICK’S DAY!!

Blessings and hope!

14 comments   |  tags: , , , , | posted in bathroom, hope, multiple sclerosis, Ramblings, RANDOM

March 16, 2010

A True OMFG moment!!

By Tracy

So, yesterday I was just hanging out in my room, on my bed and cruising around the net on my MAC.

My doggies:

Dexter

… decided they wanted to go out. This, for me, is a feat. With all three of them jamming the door, I cannot get my WC in to open the slider. So, I hang on to my laptop table, file cabinet and try and step over to get the door. I am getting pretty good at it except for when they get really excited and knock me over. Well, yesterday, I started to fall and my laptop table got pushed against the file cabinet where I had a candle on a candle heater. OMFG, smash, bam, boom… I looked down and the table had knocked over the candle and it went all over the place. Now, if it had just gotten on my carpet, no biggie… BUT…it got on my I Love Lucy lap table and the worst…my UGG slippers that a truly inspiring woman gave to me as a present!! :-(

I was so upset and completely out of my mind. Called my amazing hubby who said not to worry we WILL get them fixed no matter what it takes. He loves me so!! :-) Today I did get some off of the wax off of them. I have UGG cleaners, brushes and all the gear needed, but I am going to find an actual place that cleans UGG.

On the good side, they did not get on the inside, so I am still wearing them. Woo Hoo!! I have 4 pair of UGG boots and these slippers. The slippers are my favs as the inspiring woman who gave them to me, means the world to me. No matter what happens, I will wear these until the soles fall off. [which will be never as they are UGG’s!

For those who care, I will keep you update on my UGG cleaning endeavor!!

Blessings and Hope!!

20 comments   |  tags: , , , , | posted in friendship, hope, Ramblings, RANDOM, sadness, shoes

March 16, 2010

It’s 2010 Census time…

By Tracy

I’ll be filling ours out today. When will you fill yours out?

Even with this fun filled form, do they really think this will give them a ‘true’ count. Ok, ok give or take 200,000 or so. Does that sound a bit high? It might even be bit low. But, oh well, I’ll fill it out and send it in.

A shout out to Ruby…you go girl getting yours done so quick! :-)

Blessings and Hope!

11 comments   |  tags: | posted in Ramblings

March 15, 2010

Studio FM

By Tracy

Studio FM is not your ordinary shop. The items are funky, eclectic, one-of-a-kind, retro, antique, and the list goes on. Check our her site for the best in up-cycled designs!

Here are some pictures of my beautiful one-of-a-kind pendant necklace.

Thanks Heather, love it and will be back. BTW, get some paper beads for sale for supplies.

no face, no makeup...lolclick on images to enlarge

Only neck shots as no makeup and bad hair day! lol

Blessings and Hope!

7 comments   |  tags: , , , , | posted in jewelry, shopping

March 14, 2010

Making it Through the Rain…

By Tracy

This blog is my blog. It is for me to share my life with my friends and my family and anyone who has an interest. It is to tell the stories of a crazy lady living with MS…moi!

When all the crap happened to me at the hospital I used it, MY blog, to reach out to my readers for support through a time that encompassed my world in a not so good way. I never wanted nor asked for your sympathy or pity. That’s not what I want. I needed…NEEDED support and friendship. That is why I shared my experience with you all.

This past year I have progressed more than any year previous, but still found the humor and tried to always add something in my blogs for a giggle. Even in my Hell Hospital blogs I tried to add humor.

During my stay in the big house, I was informed that I have acquired 3 new active lesions on my spine. With all the hospital terror and the issues of late, I put that aside and put it to the back of my mind. I am terrified of what these lesions could mean. No one can really give me a definitive answer. Is this the reason I can no longer use my walker and rely on my wheel-chariot now more than ever? Am I on my way to total paralysis? Again, no one knows. But either way I will deal with it as it comes. My inner spirit is strong.

There may be days I will be down, happens when you have a chronic illness that takes from you every day. But, as I have said before, NEVER confuse my tears or sadness for weakness as you will be wrong. I am strong in mind, heart, and soul. I do make it through the rain EVERY day of my life. I  do this with the help of my family and my friends that accept me for who I am and not what they want me to be.

I was told I look for sympathy and feel sorry for me cards [whatever the fuck that meant]. In this case this was one of the ‘the pot totally calling the kettle black’ things. Sympathy and the feel sorry me BS is something I have no time for.

This is a blog about a woman who lives with Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis. Of course there will be blogs that might be a tad depressing. DUH!!! But, you will always find HOPE in my writings. I end every blog with ‘Blessings and Hope’! Why, because there always is Hope!!

I am only me, and will no longer apologize for that! No one should ever apologize for being who they are.

So, here it is, take me as I am and I will do the same for you. If you feel I have wronged you, talk to me, come to me and I will show you the same courtesy. I am not a liar as I have no reason to lie.  I am not a manipulative person, but have found that many have tried to manipulate me. Do not do it again!!

I will now be back to my former sarcastic, a bit crazy, mentoring blogging in hopes that maybe I can help someone in a similar situation. Maybe we can help each other. And btw, I do still make some wicked tasty lemonade from the lemons life has given me.

Thank you for being here and reading me. As new details arise regarding the hell hospital situation, I will update. [if you do not want to read em, then move the fuck on] :-)

And, as always…

Blessings and Hope!!

17 comments   |  tags: , , | posted in Craziness, family, friendship, health, HELL, hope, Hospital, mindless-thoughts, multiple sclerosis, Ramblings, RANDOM, sarcasm, strength

March 14, 2010

Wanting me to be real…

By Tracy

WARNING!!!! “F” bomb alert!!

So for many years I hid my pain in jokes, sarcasm and laughter. It was easier for me and less upsetting for those around me. So many people told me, “Be Real” “Tell the truth about your pain” “Ask for help”…

So, in the past year or so I tried this route only to have it thrown back in my face. Now, when I show my pain, being real, I’m told it’s for sympathy, poor me shit. REALLY! Fuck off please. I have never asked for anyone’s pity, sympathy or the poor me pour me a drink bullshit! Yet for years I listened to others pain and tried to help in any way I could. Now I’m the bad person. Again I say Fuck off please.

Then I got the, I’ll show people the real you, I’ll copy and paste emails. Really, go ahead doctor up your emails. you are the only one that will look like a childish buffoon. As for the ‘people’ who talk the shit and tell the lies…come forward, say it to me. But no, you just block me as you know damn well I will say it to your face, no need to lie or go behind any ones back. That’s all of your jobs. And for those who talked all the shit to this person, de-friend me, block, stay the fuck away from me. You are liars and pathetic. So, you all deserve one another. And if it’s who I think it all is, stop emailing me as well with your BS about this said person. Just leave me the fuck alone. Get rid of my email, my phone numbers etc., oh and grow the FUCK up! You all know who you are and you all know the ‘real’ truth.

I truly hate being this person, this angry person. And after this, hopefully these 2 faced ignorant assholes will back the fuck off and move on. I have not changed and am the same person I have always been. Love me or leave me. Ask me a question and I will tell you the truth.

I am sorry for those reading this and seeing me being this angry person, but I am so tired of being certain people’s punching bag. I have enough of my own problems, health and otherwise, so it is time this was said. I will not allow any of you to hurt me and cause me to become ill due to all the stress. And if you feel the need to comment here again, it won’t come through. If any of ya feel the need to email me, it won’t be read. So don’t waste your time or energy. Just FUCK off please.

I know the person I am and the friend I am, maybe you should look in the mirror and figure out who you are. Remember each time you point your little finger at me there are 3 pointing back at you.

I pray for you and hope that one day you will find the happiness and peace you need. I have my peace and my happiness in my family and my real friends. So really there is no need for you or room for you anymore.

When it all falls apart…I won’t be here next time. Once bitten, twice shy!!

And now I am done and will be back to my REAL self free from the toxic people that have no place in my world!

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Blessings and Hope!!

Damn it feels good to purge!!!

28 comments   |  tags: , , , , , | posted in anger, HELL, Pain, sadness, SoapBox

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