Health · Hope · Ramblings

The Padded Room featuring Carol Urban!

This week’s guest is Carol Urban. She will be sharing her story of courage and strength in the face of adversity.

Carol was diagnosed with Stage III colon Cancer September 2007.
We hope you join us for this amazing story of Hope!

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/rlrn/2010/05/13/the-padded-room–unlocked-and-unplugged

A Life without hope is like living behind the locked doors of a padded room. Ruby and Tracy want to help you find the hope needed to unlock those doors.

Two crazy girls, passionate about being real in the midst of their own real-life health and emotional challenges, are here to encourage you in yours.

**Disclaimer** Aside from being certifiable, the ladies from The Padded Room hold no certificates, licenses nor are medical professionals in any area related to mental or physical issues. Please seek professional treatment if you have questions or concerns about your health.

Blessings and Hope!

Ramblings · Religion

W.W.J.D.

All over the net I read things people write regarding illegals, health care, blah blah blah. Send the illegals back where they came from. Why should I have to pay for some welfare case’s health care. The people writing these disgusting comments… Christians. Or at least that is what they call themselves.

So, I ask you… What Would Jesus Do?

Be merciful to all!

We are human beings, children of God, or so ‘they’ say. Well if that’s how Jesus would treat people, I want no part of it.

People come here looking for a better life. The majority are hard working men and women. Of course there will be some undesirables, you will find that any where you look. But, the majority are not bad people. And they do the work we do not want to do. Are you gonna get off your ass and do the jobs they do? If not, then shut the hell up. Is there a right or wrong answer to this? NO… so W.W.J.D?

Then you have those that do not want to pay to help our Healthcare system. Most are not welfare cases. Many are men and women that cannot get full time hours as most companies do not want to pay for health care. So these people work 2 or more jobs to pay for some sort of health care for their kids. Many times they cannot afford for themselves. But, God no, why should we have to pay for them. Why, because they are human beings.

Let’s hold the big corporations responsible for it. Speak out and tell them to get health care for their workers. Oh wait, they cannot afford it because the health care industry runs the world and they want money, nothing else.

Well, I would much rather spend my tax money on health care then paying for city beautification, that we never see happen. Or paying to help politicians rip us off some more.

So again, to all you Christians, W.W.J.D. I guess He’d just let them suffer and die, right? Even though my faith is not what you’d call strong right now, I do not think He’d let this happen.

Just wait…one day when you have to go before the Lord…you think you’re in… He is going to ask you… why, why did turn away my children when they only wanted a better life? Why, why did you turn away the sick people when they only wanted to be well?

I’d love to be there for your answer, because I think you are going to be quite surprised where you end up!

Remember, the only reason you are where you are, is the luck of the biological draw.

Blessings and Hope!

Anger · PAIN · Ramblings · Religion

May I have some cheese with my Whine? Whiny Bitch alert!

Will you call the whaaaaambulance? How about some whhaaburgers and some french cries with a Mountain Boo Hoo!!

This be me…

Finally got rid of a two day migraine. A couple Ibuprofen for the pain, Benadryl to help me sleep, and coffee when I finally woke up this afternoon. Relief… for a lil bit anyways!!

Now my friggen right side of my jaw is in so much pain I cannot think straight. Is it my teeth? Maybe. Could it be a jaw issue? Maybe. I do not want to go to the dentist. I floss 2-5 times a day and brush twice day. WTF!! It’s probably thanks to all the amazing medications thanks to my MS causing my teeth issues. The dentist told me before, it can happen that way. Again I say…WTF!! Really?? One pain goes away and an even more agonizing pain starts. I almost squeezed a whole thing of Orajel on the right side of my mouth. When will the insanity stop, or at least cut me a fucking break??

How much am I, or anyone else for that matter, supposed to take. Please do not quote anything to me either. I think I have had my share of pain, my share of sadness, my share of shit. People tell me, ‘ You’re never given more than you can handle!’ Bullshit, that ended about 3+ years ago when a chair became my only means of ‘walking’.  I cannot take anymore, take it back, I do not fucking want it.

So, now it is probably root canal time. Really…am I going to miraculously get the money for it?? Don’t think so. So, I will just have to deal with the pain for awhile.

Please do not tell me it could be worse. As it does get worse every day. Funny thing is, no one with disabilities or illness’ ever say that, it’s the ‘healthies’ that do. So I say to them, ‘It could be worse!” But I hope for them it does not become worse.

Ok, I am off my ‘Whiny Bitch’ soap box….for now!!

Blessings and Hope!

Anger · HELL · Ramblings

Sonoma County CA separates elderly gay couple and sells all of their worldly possessions

Sonoma County CA separates elderly gay couple and sells all of their worldly possessions.

This is an outrage. No matter your beliefs, this is a terrible case of prejudice.

This angers me, saddens me, and shocks me! How could they do this? How could the courts let this happen??

Please pass this on, blog it, twitter it, anything to get the word out.

This WRONG on EVERY level!!!

Anger · Fear · Ramblings · Sarcasm

Insanity…

She can hear the laughter and can imagine the smiles on all the faces. It’s a party, a birthday party for her neighbor. She was invited, but she knew she would not go. Not because she did not want to, but because of the chair she could not rise from.

She cried in the shower so no one could see. She is mad, mad at the world. Her wonderful husband feels the brunt of her anger. The old saying, ‘You always hurt the ones you love’, seems to apply. She knows what she is doing, but she can not stop.

She is sad, she is angry. She hears the music next door. She longs to be there. She can’t. She knows they would move things around to allow her in, but she can’t. It is embarrassing, humiliating, to her. She knows no one would care, but she cares. So, she will not go, will never go.

She hides her pain behind her smile, behind her sarcasm. It is not pride as she has no more pride. It is her pain, her pain of remembering how it used to be. She will get through this, she always does. Or does she? She’s not sure.

Pain

Anger

Sadness

Hatred

Envy

She is filled with all of these. Want, the want to walk again. To be able to drive again without fear. To simply stand up without falling to the floor. To be able to hold her bladder. To not have migraines every week. To be able to sit up by herself without help or severe struggles. To not feel guilty for not being able to do things. To not feel pain all over her body. To be whole again. To not be angry. To not be sad. To want to live…

She is insane. Insane because she knows this is her life, but she thinks it will change. She asks over and over, WHY? Insane, because she expects an answer, an answer that will never come.

She…is me. And she wants to live again…

Blessings and Hope!

Ramblings · Strength

In with a bang, out with a whimper…

This the story of my shower from http://premier-bathrooms.com/showers/

The Refresh $14,995
The Inspire $11,995

Yes, that is the prices of these fabulous showers. So, this is probably why they do not give you any kind of estimate over the phone. Most people would probably hang up, and quickly. Now, this does include any unforseeable issues like bad green-board and clean-up etc. But, what if there are no unforeseeable issues? Same price? Guess so. But wait, you can finance. So, let’s pay triple the amount for a shower. Woot woot. Shit no, sorry. It’s a  shower for fuck’s sake and not even gold lined. Now maybe if it came with a hot towel boy…

So, my question, how the hell do people, crippled people and the elderly pay for these ‘high end’ showers. They most likely get ripped off and have to finance. Not many people have this kind of cash to just hand over.

Oh, but wait! If we ordered and signed within that day, 1,000.00 would be taken off. Well holy shit and slap my ass, then let’s do it!! NOT!!

So, needless to say, I was bummed. I cried for a bit, then got pissed at the highway robbery going on here. At 5pm, I took a Xanaflex and went to bed.

Now on to plan B. If that does not work then plan C, D, E etc. Whatever it takes.

We are going to go to Lowe’s and check out the shower enclosures. If we can find one without a seat or built in shelving in the back, we can get one like that. Then I found an awesome fold up teak handicapped shower chair that we can have installed along with some bars to help me in and out of the shower. Then get a new dual shower head with bar for the hand-held shower head that can slide up and down. It will not be as high tech, etc as the Premier Showers, but it will be just as good at a fraction of the cost.

So, my shower story continues. It will happen, just may take a bit longer than I want.

Life is good!

Blessings and Hope!

Health · HELL · Holiday · Ramblings · RANDOM

Losing my mind!!

Aha, got your attention! lol Actually my facebook status from their status shuffle says it all:

Lil’ ole’ me has lost my mind and doesn’t know where to find it, I’ll leave it alone, hoping it will come home, dragging my brain beside it!

I love it and it is so me!!

Things are going pretty good. Being back on Etsy is gr8. I made 2 sales, ty Frannie and Tina, and actually feel like making new things again. It gets me out of my room at least. I still am not feeling the ‘outside’ world yet since my hell stay, but baby steps ya know!

Awaiting return calls from some attorneys, but I think they are afraid of taking on the hospital. So, have some calls today to outside attorneys. You would think they [hospital liaison] would at least call to check in on how things are going, since they told me to keep themapprised on the bills. Ya, RIGHT!! lol They want me to forget, not happening.

My kids are off school for spring break. The girls get 2 weeks, the boy gets one. It’s actually been nice so far. Friends coming and going, so they are not bored. Bored kids are annoying kids. lol So keeping them busy is a gr8 thing. Austin went to Magic Mountain yesterday. FUN! He said he had a blast!

wheeeeeeeee

I love coasters!!! Woo Hoo!!

Hope everyone is having a great day/night wherever you may be!!

Blessings and Hope!

Hope · Ramblings

A Fabulous Flair’s new location

A Fabulous Flair is now back on Etsy!! It was my first home and it did me well! Don’t fix it if it ain’t broke! lol

Added some new things today and some old:

PinkyI will be adding new pieces weekly if I am able. I am very happy to be back on Etsy.

I still have my other site for my Recycles . Right now I have a gr8 beginners flute available with lots of accessories that go with it.

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I want to wish a very happy 21st Birthday to Amanda Eldridge as well. So wish i could have been there to celebrate this day with you. Know that I was there in spirit!! Hope you had a couple of drinks for me!!

the BIG 21
The BIG 21

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Also on a good note, I got my first Living Dead Doll, Jasper:

Jasper - Series 14

I know, I know, a bit creepy but so cool!! lol

Anywho, hope everyone is having a great day/evening wherever you may be!

Blessings and Hope!!

HELL · Love · Ramblings · RANDOM

Life is good – Randomosity

It’s all in how you look at it really.

As many of you have read, I spilled wax on my favorite pair of UGG slippers that were given to me as a gift from an ‘inspiring’ woman. No one can remove the wax. It was too much and too deep in the sheepskin. So, my heart was broken. Today, a Zappos box came. Inside were a new pair of UGG slippers. The only difference is the color. My husband ordered them for me when he realized the others could not be saved. I was so socked as my hubby is awesome, but never thought he would do this. He thinks my shoes fetish is nutzzz. lol I was also a tad sad as my other pair are from someone I so adore. I will not throw them out. I packed them back in their box and am hoping that at some point there will be something to clean them.

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Last week I actually got new pieces on my site A Fabulous Flair . Since my Hospital stay I have hibernated in my room. So, I pulled up my bootstraps and created! It felt so good to get something done and finished.

Brownie Blues

One of my new pieces. I just love the brown and blue together! If you find something you like, mention my blog and get 10% off.

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I also have gone through the break-up of a friendship. I have come to the realization that her ‘throwing’ me away was the best thing ever! I feel so much more positive and that old adage, ‘a weight was taken off my shoulders’. It is true, once toxic is gone, you feel so much better. The negativity is gone, the back stabbing and back talking is gone. I always felt so drained after speaking with her. Now, I am full! So, I guess I should say thanks. I wish her the best of everything and hope she can truly find her peace.

PEACE!

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I would like to ask you all for prayers today. A good friend, BFF Kat, needs some good thoughts, blessings, prayers whatever you do. She had to put her doggy down last week which was so hard for her. Then she had to have some tests done. Something in the test was found and she has to go back for additional testing. Please keep her in your heart for a good outcome. She is an amazing friend, mommy, and wife. I feel in my heart it will be ok, but extra blessings can never hurt!! I loves ya my mini-me!!

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Blessings and Hope!