Nuff said!
Love and Light!!
Author: Tracy
A day in the life of a mommy, wife, daughter, sister, aunt and friend with Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis!
In Sickness and in Health
Dedicated to my husband…
When I heard this song by Chris Medina and watched the video of his beautiful lady, I knew this song was meant for my hubby.
I was diagnosed with MS three years into our marriage, right after the birth of our twins. Now wheelchair bound with many other issues due to the MS, my husband stays by my side.
I am one of the blessed ones…
R.I.P. Sweet Sadie!
Over twelve years ago we brought Sadie into our home. I was in a Petco looking for kitty litter and there she was. She was being adopted out. They said she was around two and had been found dumped way out in the desert. She was a skinny, goofy looking lil girl. She reminded me of a newborn foal with long skinny legs and huge paws. She had Shepard, Chow and Chesapeake Retriever in her. [heinz 57 I say] She fit in our family like a glove. Over night she grew up into an 80 pound big girl. She was our protector and our friend.
Sadie loved being outside and would sit in the middle of the lawn in the pouring rain or the 100 degree heat. She was the pack leader.
What I will remember most about her, is that she was gentle and a big love bug. She was and will always be close to my heart. She will be coming home again to sit next to Beau and Emmy on my mantle.
She is now free and no longer in pain. She can run again and I’m sure she is already chasing Beau. I know he met her at the bridge. She is forever young again.
We love you Sadie and miss you so very much. You will be forever in our hearts…
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Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Their bright eyes are intent; Their eager body quivers. Suddenly he/she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, their legs carrying him/her faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…
Stupid things STUPID people say…
“Be glad you are not in a wheelchair due to a car accident or the like. There are many paraplegics in wheelchairs because of this. This is something they did not ask for.”
This was in response to someone in a wheelchair due to illness. I was like WTF! Are you insane or just ignorant. This person needs a lobotomy… or maybe they have had one already. Do they think we asked for the illness that put us into a wheelchair? I feel as awful for those in accidents as I do for myself and others with a crippling illness!
Really people, think before you open your stupid mouth!
I’m out! Peace!
Chris Medina – What Are Words
This is an amazing song of true love and commitment! A very special meaning to me…
Chris Medina is my new Idol!
2011 American Idol castoff Chris Medina – the guy who touched everyone’s hearts and possibly made us shed a little tear with his heartbreaking love story about his girlfriend who currently suffers from brain injury due to a car accident – is the first example of the new partnership between American Idol and Universal Music Group. Chris Medina has been given the opportunity to release his debut single online. “What Are Words” which hit iTunes on February 24th is a beautiful ballad, inspired in his AI story, written by Rodney “Darkchild” Jerkins.
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone
And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most
What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
And I’m gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
I’m forever keeping my angel close.
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Love and Light!
Another quiet Sunday…
I hate the quiet all the time. It’s 105 degrees here and I so want to go outside and get in the pool and just swim. We purchased a 15′ above ground pool 7 years ago. In the beginning it was not a problem getting in… now no can do. I have not been able to get in for about 3 years now. We even purchased a dual staircase ladder to make it easier for me. Alas, it was good for a while. I so miss the sun and even the heat. I miss the water the most. 😦
I truly have become the “Vampire Mom’! The night is my friend!! moooowhaaaaaa
See, I become one at Halloween. Love scaring the little ones!! 😛
Now to ramble… I LOVE Apple Support!! My MacBook Pro power adapter is messing up. Sometimes it charges, sometimes it doesn’t. So I went to Apple support, online, and set up a phone call for this morning at 10 am. On a Sunday even!! The CS rep, Greg, got me all hooked up with a new one coming overnight mail. Then all I have to do is send the old one back in the pre-paid box and I’m done. So glad I purchased the Apple Care protection. I love my MacBook Pro!! The best computers ever… and they’re pretty too! lol
Hoping everyone is having a great day!
People let me tell ya ’bout my best friend…
His name is Roger, and he is my hubby of 18 years. We have stood by each other through thick and thin. We have three gorgeous and talented children together. He stands by me every second of every day, which has to be hard at times. I know it must be hard to believe… but I can be a real handful [bitch] at times. 😛
Was just thinking about him and felt like sharing with you!
I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna be sick anymore!
As I started my new treatment this issue came in to play. On August 23, 2011 I had my first infusion of Tysabri.
One major side effect is Progressive multifocal leukoencephalopathy (PML), which may cause death. This medication suppresses my over active immune system due to my progressive MS, which can lead to this viral infection. I will be monitored for medicinal hepatitis [liver damage] and UTI’s. Now that my system will be suppressed I am more prone to getting other issues.
When getting ready for my appointment we [hubby and I] discussed the possibility of PML. When Roger looked at me and said that this way I can get my wish, to die, I sat open mouthed. I have stated, when in depression, that death is freedom and sometimes I do not want to wake up in the morning, I guess he took it literally. With tears welling up in my eyes I explained that I do NOT WANT to die, I just want the pain to go away. I want to walk again, to be able to hold my bladder, to be able to go out in to the sun, to be able to drive, to not have mental and physical pain… I want to play with my kids!! I will be honest… there are days I do not want to be here anymore. Unless you suffer from a serious chronic illness it is hard to grasp. But, in all actuality, I do not want to die. I just want my life back, a quality of life back.
I’m not even asking for much from this medication. I just want to be able to drive again and hold that bitch of a bladder! 😛 I’m not expecting much, as when I do my hopes are always dashed, so I am just waiting. It’s all I can do. I’ll keep fighting until my strength is gone. I need to be here to annoy my kids for a long time to come. It’s what I live for! lol
I will now go once a month for the two hour infusion. They [who the hell are they] say it can take 6 months to a year to see a difference. I’ve waited this long, so what’s another year or so. My problem is when I want something, I want it now. MS has certainly taught me patience… for the most part! [I try, really I do]
A new adventure is happening, and as always, I will go in head first! Wish me luck!
Love and Light!
UPDATE “Halfway to Home”!
With over 45 volunteers and friends of Halfway to Home bused in from the Antelope Valley, last night in a Bakersfield night court a decision was made.
Halfway to Home’s permit was not renewed… yet. The court has ruled that on September 22, 2011, Kern County will give Suzanne of list of what they want done at the rescue, concrete work, etc. She will be allowed 50 dogs, where the county only wanted 10. WINNING! And, she has 3 years to get all of this in order! WINNING again!
NOW, the hard work begins… HWTH is run solely on donations and Suzanne’s Social Security. She has the largest number of volunteers for a rescue.
But, to save this shelter they will need help! To get the concrete work done, in itself, will be a big undertaking which will be costly. Three years may sound like a long time, but in reality it is just a flash in time. They will need donations! This rescue is dear to my heart as two of my furbabies were rescued here. I know times are hard, the economy is bad, but maybe instead of that Starbucks coffee, donate! You get my meaning. 😀
I ask you to please share this information, please help save Halfway to Home and the countless dogs that are rescued every year!
Click the banner below to go the their website and you can donate there.
Your donations ARE tax deductible!
Love and Light!
Help Save “Halfway to Home” Dog Rescue!
Please take a moment and watch the video below:
The video explains the peril that Halfway to Home is going through.
I have personal experience with this rescue. My good friend Courtney is a volunteer and two of my ‘fur-kids’ are HWTH rescues. If not for Suzanne and her NO KILL rescue, they would have perished either on the street or by the High Kill shelters. I can not imagine life without them.
The dogs at this NO KILL shelter are taken care of with the highest level of love and compassion. They are clean, well fed, up to date on shots, and always spayed or neutered. This is a travesty of justice.
This rescue, Halfway to Home, helps the County and State by taking some of the burden off of the High Kill Shelters. HWTH is a highly respected rescue and has been a #1 rescue at PetSmart. I am so confused as to how and why anyone could NOT renew their permit. It sickens me to think of all the dogs that will now die in the streets or in the shelters due to this irresponsible decision. I truly hope this decision is re-thought out and that their permit is renewed. How anyone with a heart could do this is beyond my thinking. All I have to do is look into my HWTH rescue dog’s eyes to know this non-renewal decision is truly wrong and inhumane. Is this really what Kern County wants to be known for? I hope not…
Please share the video above, donate to Halfway to Home, let these amazing people and doggies know they are loved.
THOSE WHO WANT TO DO MORE are urged to e-mail a message to The Animal Control Commission at animalcontrolcommission@co.kern.ca.us. Lorelei Oviatt, Director of Planning & Community Development Department at LoreleiO@co.kern.ca.us. Scott Denney, Planning Operations Division Chief at ScottD@co.kern.ca.us. Lorine Vasquez, Planner 2 at VasquezL@co.kern.ca.us.
PLEASE help!
Love and Light, Tracy
Making it Through the Rain 