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Am I alive or do I just exist?!

Remember these from July 2019. My wonderful bladder stones thanks to my wonderful urostomy. So I was supposed to get this taken care of back in August 2019. Didn’t happen because that’s when I had to go to the hospital because I thought I broke in my hips and my back when I was trying to get in to rehab. Thanks to Independence Blue Cross not allowing me rehab I was unable to get out of my bed so we kept rescheduling. Now with the virus I was rescheduled twice, and today they called to tell me it had to be pushed back to May 26. But it’s really only a tentative date because it may change again. So basically I’m filling up with so much bacteria and that’s probably why I feel a little clammy and not well at times. I try to do everything right but nothing ever goes right. Possibly because I am left-handed. 😂😂 I’m joking… Or am I. 🤔

I am trying to find the humor in all of this because that’s the only way I survive. But man, it’s getting harder and harder to laugh. I know I know, I should be glad because I’m alive. Am I alive or do I just exist. You’ll be the judge. 🤷🏻‍♀️😕

Twins

There’s an alien in my bladder

I’m wondering how many more are in there now. 😳

Have courage and be kind.

3 thoughts on “Am I alive or do I just exist?!

    1. I try to, but after six years being trapped in my bed and I don’t see anything changing very soon. Right now I’m just existing. I figure it’s my new normal for my multiple sclerosis. And I find humor that helps me get through. 😉

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