It’s been two weeks and one day since my suicide attempt. I’m still on that high but I have had a couple of lows. My husband helped talk me through them and I’m utilizing my tribe. I have the suicide hotline phone number ready to go on my phone, and Alexa will call them for me as well. People think it’s easy to just, get over things. For some it is, but for some of us it’s not. All we can do is live day by day. I am actually living minute by minute right now. I have been known to self deprecate and that is something I’m trying to stop. I am an awesome person, a great mom and wife, and a fierce friend. I am very proud of myself right now for holding it together when I’m ready to fall apart. I am really hoping for better days. I am hoping to get out of this bed at some point. I just have to let go of my past and who I was and learn to love the person I’m becoming. It’s a process and a pretty hard road, but I’m going to keep going forward.

Have courage and be kind.
Making it Through the Rain 
you are an amazing person Tracy! 🙂
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Thank you. ♥️ I’m not used to the newness of happy. If that makes any sense.
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start getting use to it! 🙂
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♥️♥️♥️—always here!
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Oh Tracy, I’m so sorry… I’ve missed a lot recently and clearly this is a big thing I’ve missed. My heart hurts knowing how you must have been feeling and what you’ve been going through, but I love that you’re proud of yourself. You fucking well should be. I’m proud of you. You’re a tough cookie despite the times you may feel like a soggy one, you’ve got this. Go easy on yourself and keep riding the waves. Sending lots of love ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Caz xx
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Thank you so very much. Tomorrow is my first counselor meeting so things are actually coming together. Thank you again. 🖤🖤
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