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It’s been a while…

I know it’s been a while. A lot of crazy shit has gone on. A lot of good but then some bad as well. 😳 Welcome to my world. 😈mwahahaha

So when I went to my doctor he thinks there may be an issue in my lower back. There is a possible fracture so he is wanting an MRI to see if there’s issues with my bones etc. I forgot to get the order on Friday so they are faxing it to my husband‘s work. My issue is no one is set up properly to give me an MRI. I need a Hoyer lift and unfortunately the ones they have at the hospital do not work very well with my sling. So I may have to bring my lift. And because of the metal they will have to find a way to get me on a gurney to bring me into the MRI to get me on the table. The last time I did the x-rays it was completely horrible. The pain was off the charts and that’s actually when they found my fracture at L1. 😳 So I’m not looking forward to the MRI. I’m actually scared to death. I’m really tired of all of us. I don’t usually break down but this is fucking awful.
If my back literally just keeps getting fractures I’m fucking done. I am so fucking tired. I had a blast the past few weeks and I really thought things were getting better and then, Bam this happens. I’ve been working so fucking hard to get out of this bad that I’ve been trapped in for five years and it just seems like the universe is against me. 😢

‼️‼️OKAY… I got it out and now I’m going to pull up my big girl panties and say to hell with all of this I’m going to kick some ass and find out what the fucks going on. I’m not sure if the universe knows who they’re dealing with… they must not know who I am. 😉
Sending out all kinds of love and hugs! ♥️😘 — feeling a bit overwhelmed and a bit pissed off… So watch out universe.

As always, have courage and be kind! 🖤

5 thoughts on “It’s been a while…

  1. I completely understand the frustration you are feeling. I do believe so many doctors are just incompetent and care way more about their paychecks than their patients. It really is sad that when we are dealing with so much physically, all doctors and insurance companies do is add to our stress making how we feel that much worse. Sometimes these people push us to levels that cause anger and that is okay. I do hope things work out well for you and please remember to rest as much as you possibly can, I mean hell you are going to need the extra energy to kick some ass!!!

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    1. I decided to call and tell them that they need to do the MRI outpatient so I can be sedated. If in fact there is a break I don’t need the extra pain that it takes to have an MRI. They should’ve thought of that but luckily I did and they’re going to do it. It’s been a very weird past month or so.

      How are you doing? I don’t know if you noticed but I left that big group. I missed it but I wasn’t going to deal with idiots. LOL

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      1. I am glad you called them! You definitely do not need any additional pain!!! We have to think of everything with these doctors.

        I am doing well, thank you for asking. Life has been so busy and hectic, but I am adjusting. Honestly, I have not been doing much with any groups because I am struggling enough with working full-time and trying to blog! I understand what you mean though!!

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      2. Looks like they’re getting me in on Monday through the emergency room so it will make it so much easier for me.
        You are my hero because I don’t know how you can work full-time and do everything else that you do. I really hope you find time to rest as well.

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      3. I am so happy they are getting you in Monday! I hope everything goes smooth for you! I will be thinking of you! Aww, that is so sweet of you to say and you really just made my week! It is super challenging to work full-time and still maintain everything else, but I honestly just do not have a choice right now. My husband has been out of work for more than a year now, which causes money issues. Him being out of work isn’t anything due to health reasons, he said it is depression but enough is enough and he needs to do something about it!!

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