I know, I know… A really long time no see!

So very tired.

Wow it’s been a little over all year. Crazy how time just catches up with you. In that time I’ve had five more surgeries dealing with kidney stones and having nephrostomys placed. This last one has been probably the hardest. It won’t be coming out until November 23, so I’m a little unhappy about that. But what are you gonna do?! I had some breathing problems which was kind of scary as that’s kind of new to me. But I’m getting by.

I am the phoenix!

I do have some good news, after three years I got into my sling and into my shower chair and had a real shower! Antonette, my physical therapy angel, decided it wasn’t about moving the legs right now it’s about stretching them out. My frozen knees now bend again as do my hips. Unfortunately when I did start sitting up straight, the kidney stones did what kidney stones do and they all started dropping. Hence why I have a nephrostomy right this moment. Another little bit of unfortunate news is that getting in my sling with the tube in my back is not that easy. It gets caught in the mesh of my sling. I’m not able to sit up for a little bit but we are continuing the pillows under the knees around the hips and pulling the legs together and I know once I have surgery, I will be back up and getting back in my chair. That was a horrible sentence but right now I really don’t care. 😜 I have never claimed that I’m a writer.

As I said, this time it’s kind of hit me hard and I’m not feeling my best but I need to get back into doing what I do. I am still fighting with Independence Blue Cross. But one thing I realized is that I gave the people I spoke with way too much credit. Basically, I thought, when I was called by Jason, that he was somebody important that could do something. He’s not he’s just a person that has a notebook that he reads off to disgruntled members that they find online. He’s basically their online boy. That does make it easier realizing that I’m just dealing with basic hourly employees and I can’t expect too much out of them. Tomorrow I have to do some adulting and really start making some calls because everything that’s done to me they deny, still. It ends up in my favor because I have no choice as to doctors that are used or ambulances that are called when I go to the hospital and there’s a law that they have to pay in-network when that happens. It just sucks that I have to jump through the hoops every time. But like I always say, they don’t know who they’re dealing with. 😏

I’m sorry about this is all over the place I’m just in kind of a strange space right now. I hope everyone out there is doing well and I’m going to try my best to get back here and do what I need to do. 🖤

8 thoughts on “I know, I know… A really long time no see!

  1. Tracy, I’m so glad that you posted! I looked here yesterday for some strange reason and saw that you hadn’t posted in a really, really long time. I didn’t know what to think. And I couldn’t believe when I saw a new post today. ❤️ Idk how you did it, but you have a physical therapist!!!!!! Bless her and how you got her! I’m so proud of you! Congratulations on the shower and getting into your sling! I’m so, so glad you posted!! ❤️❤️

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    1. So very good to hear from you! I’m allowed like four physical therapy visits a month so she worked it that she would come once a week and give me a new stretch for my legs. And it worked. I should’ve known as I used to do yoga. It’s going to be a bit but it will happen! How are you and how is the family? You can text me anytime. 🖤😘


  2. Stay strong you have come a long way!!

    Wish I could get in the shower again bath wipes are really getting old!!

    Good luck
    I’m rooting for you!! 🙏🙏❤️

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    1. I hate the bath wipes. I mean I have to admit they are amazing to have when you cannot get in the shower or bath. Make sure you keep trying to get back in that shower.
      And thank you, I am rooting for you as well! 🖤🙏🖤


  3. You are my hero, truly & absolutely 🧡 the strongest lady I know & I can’t wait to see it the day you are back in your chair. You have so many amazing adventures yet to be had! Keep fighting!

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  4. Good to see you back, it’s been so long I had forgotten about you. I’m still fighting the ppms battle but I have been luckier then most with the rate of progression. Keeps your hopes up Tracy.

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