Light at the end of the tunnel?

Posted: May 4, 2009 in Uncategorized

Still looking for it…crawling to it…reaching for it. Is it really there? I always tell my friends when they come to me looking for hope it is there. 99% of the time they come back and tell me they found it. So, where is it for me?

After the MS walk I was sunburned, tired, and felt better than I had in a long time. I had almost ten whole days of feeling good. Guess that is all I am allowed at any given time. For the past 5 days my legs do not want to function, my head feels as if there is a fog inside and when I turn my head it feels like I might pass out. My hands are numb and I am crying at everything.

I should probably just be used to it, this is my MS. This is what happens to me. So deal with it right? hmmmmmmmm not so much. Why should i deal with it, why should i accept it?

My son is sick and my dd is coming down with something. I cannot get them to the doctor so hubby will have to take time off work and do the job i am supposed to do. Driving is not ‘good’ for me when I am down. So, what to do???

I’ll tell you what to do. Go with what my body is telling me and rest. I do not want to let my doctor know as he will have me in the hospital and that is not an option for me. So, I will rest and hope for that light. I will rest and hope for a better day. I will hope the day sometime soon where I can make some new things for my shop. Numb hands and jewelry design do not mix!! lol This is where the depression lies. I cannot be the mom I want to be or create my jewelry.

So, I will keep an eye on the horizon and look for that light…I will find it!
Blessings!

When the world says give up, hope whispers try it one more time!

Comments
  1. Twisted Serenity says:

    I can really relate to a lot of what you are writing. I wait for the light, too. We will both get it one day! Hugs and blessings to you, my friend!

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  2. Tracy says:

    i know u can relate sweetie! one day that light will be there!! xoxo

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  3. Renee says:

    I relate hunny, and the light will be there one day …. we just have to perservere. I am thinking of you hunny as always .. I love you.

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  4. Ruby Cantu says:

    I so totally get this. Sucks, you and your mind want to be elsewhere but your body has other ideas…..

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