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The Strength Inside – part I

I truly believed that my life was only my MS. I was no longer Tracy, my new name was MS. For years I was told that with my type, Primary Progressive, that there was nothing I could do. I would slowly progress and there was nothing that would stop it. For some reason I actually believed the people that told me that, hell they were doctors. Basically, I gave up. On January 30th, someone I loved very much, passed away. I don’t remember much after that until February 16th when I came to a crossroads. During those 2 weeks I lost the use of my left arm, and most of my right. I had told my family that when my arms went, I’m going too. So on that night, with the only hand that was working, I opened a bottle of my pills, and was ready to go be with my beautiful friend, Carolyn Baker. Then something amazing happened. You see normally my dogs sleep with me. That evening none were in my room. At the moment the bottle touched my lips my beautiful girl, Soloh, jumped on the bed came to me and snuggled. I could hear Carolyn’s voice telling me to STOP, that I’m strong, and to get the HELL up and get some damn help!! I knew it was Carolyn that sent Soloh to me at that moment. She loved my lil’ PitMix. I looked up, and smiled through tears, and put the top back on the bottle and set them down, and said ‘ok, girl…I hear you’! I called to my husband to take me to the hospital. He said we could wait until the next day. (Note: My MS has tried to break my family. There is much anger because of it.) At the time, my urine was very very dark almost black. I knew I had an infection for at least 3 weeks by then. So that’s why my husband thought I wanted to go to the hospital. I didn’t fill him in on the real reason…yet. I told him, “okay” and I found an ambulance that took our insurance, and called. About 5 minutes later there was a knock on the door and my husband came in and asked me if I called an ambulance. I laughed and said, “yes”. He smiled and let them in…


In this moment, my life has been changed forever…

My arms are getting tired, part 2 will be up tomorrow. Please stayed tuned. And, miracles really do happen.

Have Courage, and Be Kind

Health · Holiday · Ramblings

It starts with one person…

Barbara Rhyne tucker was to be without heat, without the basic human essentials in KC, MO. How can this be you ask? Well, even now we still have ‘slum’ lords in our Country that make money off of those less fortunate. Yes, here in the United States of America!

Laurie Zieber took action and sent a call to help out to all her Internet family. For Story, Click here.

This morning, I stood up with Laurie and sent emails to various news stations:

Does Ebenezer Scrooge really exist? He does for the tenants living in the apartment complex with Barbara Rhyne Tucker.
How can this be happening in our World today? How can we allow ‘slum’ lords to deny basic human rights for their tenants?
This man denied a heater to her because she took a stand against his tyranny and called the city on him. Someone needs to stand up and get her story told.
There are elderly in this building as well. In blizzard conditions and without heat, this could be devastating.
So, before you head off to your warm and cozy homes, Speak up and take a stand.
Let’s show the World that Christmas miracles really do happen!

Tracy Radford

When the world says, “Give up,”… Hope whispers, “Try it one more time.”

Steve Kaut from KSHB-TV responded:

We interviewed your friend and the story will run tonight.
Thank you for the heads up.

Steve Kaut


As you see, it does start with one person, one person who truly cares. Laurie Zieber was that person. Thanks to her and the many people that joined her, Barbara and the tenants at her building will be heard. Stand up against tyranny, stand up against wrong, be the voice, and miracles WILL happen!

Blessings and hope…