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Anger · Fear · Health · Multiple Sclerosis · Primary Progressive MS · Ramblings · RANDOM

Depression and money!

Tracy2 Comments

I’m finding out that depression for me causes over-spending. Now this would be okay if I had an endless supply of funds. Some turn to food, I turn to online shopping… okay food sometimes! 😉

I’m sure many know the feeling. Being homebound with the internet shopping world at my fingertips makes it so hard to ‘just say no!’ Now, I rarely pay for shipping and always get discounts, but it all adds up. I love jewelry and that’s the one thing I can wear all the time, in bed or not. Candles and perfumes are my downfall as well. Clothes for the kids and fun stuff for hubby… the list goes on and on and on.

Depression is a bitch and it comes with many ‘costs’.

I know where my depression comes from, but it’s something i cannot find help for. I get depressed for the obvious reason, my MS, but there is an even bigger depressant I won’t go in to. I’m searching for help with it as I feel my doctors have dropped the ball.

I’m one of the poster children for the saying, “Life sucks and then you die”!

Peace out

Multiple Sclerosis · Ramblings · RANDOM

Blah…

Tracy6 Comments

That’s how I feel. Not so much in a bad way, just in a blah way! 😛 All kinds of things I wan to get done, now really energy or oomph to do them. Little baby steps I guess. I’m up early with the kids while they get ready for school. Once they leave I get the dishes done, then tidy up a bit. Trying to get a little routine going again. Once I get that done, boredom sets in. Not feeling the internet much as of late and have seen all the movies on demand and all my DVD’s. Then the tireds set in and it’s off to sleep I go.

I read on a friends FB status how she was off to lie down and have a DVD day. This friend has Lupus. Someone wrote how it must be nice to be able to just lie around and do that all day. I kept out of it as my first instinct was to tell this person to STFU!!!! What we would give to not have to sleep our days away. To be able to get the fuck out of our house, have a job, do chores, etc.. I knew to move on as I did not want to rip this idiot a new asshole. Ya, we loooove not being able to do things. To sleep all day. What a fucking quality of life!!

OK! Done bitching and I feel better….

xx, Tracy...