Starting April 10, 2020 it will be mandatory to wear masks in Los Angeles. Non-medical essential employees must wear masks. Customers using these establishments must also wear masks. In the future, the city could start to hand out tickets if you do not comply.￼￼￼￼
Riverside county will also have this in effect. You may possibly end up with a nice hefty $1000 fine if caught without one. ￼
Personally I think this is a great idea. I am watching videos of people still going to friends houses, parties, the beach. I get it, quarantine sucks. Look at it this way, at some point you’ll get to do all your normal activities again. You have something to look forward to. So please stop complaining. Quarantine is my life and has been for six years. So please, just get over yourselves and do what needs to be done so we can get through this.￼￼￼ #StayHome #StayTheFuckInside #WearYourMask #DoYourPart #Quarantine￼
Have courage and be kind￼.
I will continue to say thank you until this nightmare is over! My daughter wears scrubs.￼
Have courage and be kind.￼
I know that living in the past or thinking about the past is something that we should not resign ourselves to do, but I really do miss who I was before. I was someone who loved working. Grocery shopping, in my book, was one of the best things to do. I know, I’ve never said I wasn’t a little strange. But, laundry is what I really miss doing. And no, I’m totally serious about this.￼￼ I think it’s all about the fresh smells, the warm clothes right out of the dryer, and even the act of folding things was fun for me. The weird thing is before I never thought about any of these things. I never realized why I did not mind doing these things. So I guess MS has taught me to look at things in a different light, a different perspective. Out of all these things I miss, driving is definitely the one that kicked me down the hardest. Driving was an escape, freedom, something I loved doing. When I lost that privilege, I was broken for quite some time. I could say that I will never drive again because at this point it’s probably true. Instead though, I can keep wishing and hoping that one day I may drive again. Yes, again I’m pretty sure I’ll never drive again, but it’s always so lovely to dream. 🖤
So as I wrote the above I kept thinking to myself, what I really miss is being able to do ‘anything’. We’ve been trying daily for a shower and it still has not worked. I did have a really good bed bath though, so I do get clean.￼￼￼￼￼￼ 😇 We are starting slowly with my husband rolling me over on my side for 20 minutes to a half hour. It really fucking hurts, but each time it seems to be getting a little easier so maybe one day it won’t hurt at all.￼ When I talk about what we’re doing my mind starts taking me to that bad place inside that discourages me.￼ The feeling that it’s never gonna happen no matter how slowly we go. I’m thankful that I’m feeling it and acknowledging it straight away, but it’s still scary for me.￼￼￼ You see, in my mind, when I see myself I’m not trapped in this bed. I see myself rolling over and sitting up and walking. It’s almost like a dream, but that’s what I see in my mind, my heart. ￼I’m going to keep dreaming and maybe one day it won’t just be a dream.￼￼
Have courage and be kind.￼￼
Every person that fights multiple sclerosis is an MS warrior!
Have courage and be kind! ￼￼
So we’re going to try getting me up in my shower chair. I figure since Independence Blue Cross isn’t going to help me in any way, I’m going to have to do it my damn self. Since the husband has to stay at home right now, I guess it’s the best time to start trying. I won’t lie, I am really scared because I know it’s gonna hurt like a motherfucker. So I’m going to “medicate”￼ 🌿and try to psych myself up for this. It just really sucks that I have to psych myself up to take a shower. I know that some of you reading this completely understand, and I’m so sorry￼.￼￼￼
I hope that all the movement I’ve been doing on my own will help. I just have to remind myself not to get discouraged if it doesn’t work today. If I keep trying maybe at some point it will work. The worst part about that comment is I’ve been trying on my own for quite some time now ￼and it hasn’t worked. But, maybe, one of these times it will. ￼Oh my gosh I am really nervous about this.
Also, real quick, thank you to all that have stuck by me and supported me even when I go a little mad￼. 😉 ￼Seriously, thank you 🙏🏻🖤￼
Have courage and be kind.￼
I would love to say that Independence Blue Cross is actually ‘working’ for me and that we have gotten my non-emergent transport taken care of￼. Unfortunately that’s not the case. I’ve actually been to a couple appointments using the non-emergent transport. Sadly I see future problems with this. When I called to get the pre-certification for transport I was told I wasn’t the one that should be calling￼ 😳⁉️ I was informed that my doctor needs to call every and explain that I’m bedridden thus needing the gurney transport. ￼Are they fucking kidding me? My doctor has to stop his practice to contact this ridiculous company to tell them that I am in fact, bedridden and need this service. Again, are they fucking kidding me?￼ So I put a call in to Jason to see what we could do about this. We spoke for a couple days as he was trying to find out the correct information for me regarding pre-certification. On March 6 I was told he would call me back on Monday, March 9 and let me know how I go about it. ￼￼￼My doctors appointment was for March 13 and he never called me back during that week.￼ 🤔 My appointment at my doctors was on Friday the 13th. I was not going to cancel my appointment, so I ￼went ahead and got my transport and will definitely be billing them for that trip as well. The total now out of my pocket thanks to no help from my insurance company, is $940. ￼￼
Should I have called him and asked why he wasn’t calling me back? That’s a big no. When someone tells me they’re going call me back, that’s what they’re supposed to do. I’m shocked at the incompetence of Independence Blue Cross and they are rent-a-docs and their employees.￼￼ The worst part about all of this is it’s seriously is fucking with my health. I know I sound like a broken record, but without rehab I have nothing. I think it’s finally time I either, shit or get off the toilet… I know that analogy is not the best but 😂￼￼ I really am not over exaggerating when I say this is life or death for me. I think maybe it’s time I go public. I think it’s time I show people what companies like Independence Blue Cross do to people who truly need their help. I think it’s time I take back my life, adjust my crown, and remind people who the hell they’re dealing with.
I know this blog is kind of all over the place but I really feel like I’m losing my mind. I know I’ve said this before but I really feel like I’m on an episode of punked. Real life really is stranger than fiction. I just want to get better. I just need the proper medical help that my doctors feel I should have. Sadly no one gets it until they get it and the way these people are making me feel, I hope they do get it. 🤭 I really don’t like feeling that way but I do believe that for every person that is keeping life-saving medical care from me, because they’re putting money first, ￼Karma will be introducing herself at some point. Good luck! ￼￼￼
Have courage and be kind.￼￼￼￼
Yes, Multiple Sclerosis is definitely not for the weak! We truly do earn the title, Warrior!￼
Have courage and be kind.￼