I’ve been asked recently why I haven’t blogged, honestly, I’m just blah! Lately not much on caring or really even trying. 2012 started out with flu going through my house. 

I have not had the flu for years thanks to my MS. Yes… thanks to my MS. My immune system is so overactive that colds and flus go right past me. The Tysabri infusions suppress my immune system, so, lucky me got sick! As we all know the flu makes ya all weak and shit. Times that by 1000. I’m already weak so the flu pretty much paralyzed me. Happy fucking joy joy! I’m trying to be positive that since the year started out so horribly, it can only get better. <insert sarcastic evil laugh> When I used to think that way I went from legs braces to a cane to a walker to a wheel-chariot. So the ‘it can only get better’ comment doesn’t mean all that much to me.

On a positive note… I’m getting a Picc Line inserted in the next month or so. My veins are pretty much non-existent and it hurts like a beotch when trying to find my veins. So this is a good thing. It’s a damn good thing I’m not an intravenous drug user! Seriously!! lmao

Now to share an amazing song my kid’s former nanny, Marilyn, hooked me up with. We are so blessed to still have her in our family after all theses years! She knows me so well, this is my song!

Hard Life – Brad Paisley

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Lyrics

Stop starin’ at me
Leave the sad looks at home
Everybody feels bad,
And you don’t understand,
It’s not like I’m alone

‘Cause everyone has battles to fight
And I don’t need your sympathy tonight

Yeah, it’s a hard life
But I’m okay
If I didn’t have this, I wouldn’t be who I am today
And I have lots of friends
Oh, and I have love
And yeah, I have a hard life but in some ways everybody does

There’s a lot I can’t do
But don’t be judgin me

I’m in a body I hate 
But I have my faith, more then what you see

So what if I can’t kick a soccer ball into a goal?
I feel like I can lift 500 pounds with my soul

Yeah, it’s a hard life
Oh, but I’m okay
If I didn’t have this, I wouldn’t be who I am today
And I have lots of friends
Oh, and I have love
Yeah, I have a hard life but in some ways everybody does

And some like me have lost their battle
But they will be the sun that gives you warmth,
And lights the way so we can shine on

Yeah, it’s a hard life
But I’m okay
If I didn’t have this, I wouldn’t be who I am today
And I have lots of friends
Oh, and I have love
Yeah, I have a hard life but in some ways everybody does
Yeah, I have a hard life but in some ways everybody does

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Love and Light! xx, Tracy