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Happy All Hallows’ Eve!

 I hope everyone has a very safe and Happy All Hallows’ Eve!!

As for me, my back is killing me so I am going to sit in the dark in my room and watch scary movies. One of my favorite things to do. 👻

I’m a little bummed that I’m not able to put on make up or do anything this Halloween, but there will be others.  Thankfully Snapchat has given me a few ways to do some make up. LMAO

Did I mention I love Halloween!

Be safe tonight and be mindful of others around you.  And if teenagers show up at your door, give them candy! It’s much better that they’re doing something safe and fun then being out doing something not so safe and possibly getting into trouble. Childhood leaves us much too soon so let them be children for as long as possible. 🖤

And, if you have a black kitty keep them inside tonight. Humans can be very evil and black cats are targeted on Halloween. I think we all know that humans are the only monsters in this world.

Last but not least, an update on my MRI… They are working to get it done via outpatient so that I can be sedated to help with my pain during the MRI. I decided there’s no reason for me to be in that much pain to get a test so they need to work and help me. We have to be our own advocate and we need to speak up if something is not right for us.  So that’s what I did!

And remember, have courage and be kind.

 

Angels-Among-Us · Death · Faith · family · lonliness · love · Ramblings · RANDOM · sadness · spirits

No point in chewing through the straps

Hi all! It’s been a while I know. So much has happened. I wish I could say ‘good’ things have happened…

My mom passed away June 5, 2013. Still trying to cope, trying to make sense of it. But, how do you cope? I’m numb, I’m angry, I’m sad. I don’t sleep much as I spend a lot of time talking to my mom, trying to feel her presense. I miss her and am kind of lost right now. I’m not even sure what to type or how to say it. For those who know me, I’m not usually at a loss for words.

I’ve been spending my time lying in bed lately as I have no desire to do anything or see anyone. My way of ‘coping’ I guess.

My sisters sent me a package of things from my moms and I am having a hard time opening it up. I brought home a few things from our last trip up there that I haven’t gone through either. Maybe because it makes it final…

I loved my mom dearly, but we had a bit of a strained relationship over the years. I just hope that when she took her final breath that she knew how much I loved her. I think many people feel this way when they lose a loved one.

Knowing my mom, wherever she is now, she’s taking over and letting everyone know she’s there. She’s probably remodeling, chatting up old friends, and making to-do lists for all. That’s just how she rolled and is probably still rolling.

Mom and me 1999
Mom and me 1999

All I know is I miss her and am hoping she will contact me… somehow, some way. I truly believe in spirits and I truly believe they are all around us. I’ve had first hand encounters before and am hoping at some point I will again.

Trying to be back around more and find my way back to ‘life’. For now I am taking it one day at a time.

Love and Light