anger · Depression · Fear · health · lonliness · multiple sclerosis · primary progressive MS · Ramblings · RANDOM · shopping

Depression and money!

I’m finding out that depression for me causes over-spending. Now this would be okay if I had an endless supply of funds. Some turn to food, I turn to online shopping… okay food sometimes! πŸ˜‰

I’m sure many know the feeling. Being homebound with the internet shopping world at my fingertips makes it so hard to ‘just say no!’ Now, I rarely pay for shipping and always get discounts, but it all adds up. I love jewelry and that’s the one thing I can wear all the time, in bed or not. Candles and perfumes are my downfall as well. Clothes for the kids and fun stuff for hubby… the list goes on and on and on.

Depression is a bitch and it comes with many ‘costs’.

I know where my depression comes from, but it’s something i cannot find help for. I get depressed for the obvious reason, my MS, but there is an even bigger depressant I won’t go in to. I’m searching for help with it as I feel my doctors have dropped the ball.

I’m one of the poster children for the saying, “Life sucks and then you die”!

Peace out

Ramblings · RANDOM · sarcasm · shopping · stupid_stuff

Black Friday Etiquette!

For those of you nutters that head out in the cold for the ‘deals’, this is for you!

  • Breathe and keep calm.
  • Be prepared for long lines, do not talk crap to the cashiers.
  • Be nice to ALL the associates in the stores.
  • Breathe and keep calm
  • Do not punch out the rude customer in the store that grabbed the item before you. [wait until you get outside] πŸ˜›
  • Remember the store associates HAVE to work on this day. They would much rather be home with loved ones.
  • Remember you CHOSE to go shopping on this day, so chill the fuck out.
  • Breathe and keep calm.
  • Breathe and keep calm.
  • Breathe and keep calm.

Safe shopping! Peace out!

Happiness · Holiday · multiple sclerosis · Ramblings · RANDOM · shopping · Wheelchair

I ‘got’ an Epiphanie!!

No, I didn’t ‘have’ an epiphanie, I got one. An Epiphanie camera bag that is.

My Canon camera bag is nice, but let’s face it, it’s more of a ‘man’ bag. It’s big and bulky and very hard to get in and out of. Being in a wheelchair it’s very hard to carry around along with my purse, phone, and well you know! lol


From the Epiphanie FB page:

Our mission is to save cameras from being banged around in purses, while liberating stylish women photographers from the Manbag.


Being in a wheelchair, the Epiphanie Bag is the solution for me! I can put the strap cross-body and lie it in my lap. It will be easy access AND carry all my other necessities of life. I’ll finally be able to have my camera with me. I cannot wait for it to arrive. The biggest and only problem I had on the site was deciding which one to buy! lol It took me over an hour. My daughter Ashley was the tie breaker.

The winner is:

Ginger in black

I did my research as well. There are ‘other’ bags [which will remain nameless] similar to this, but the comments and posts I read in forums, came right back to Epiphanie.

I must also thank my friend and fabulous photographer, Jen, for sharing the link to Epiphanies FB page.

I highly recommend checking out EpiphanieΒ and joining their FB page if you are a female photographer looking for a new and stylish way to carry all your camera needs. Now, we do not want to leave the men out in the cold as there are many men who are secure in their identities that may love these as well. πŸ˜€

Drop on by, check them out, and tell ’em Tracy sent you! πŸ˜‰

So there you have it… I GOT an Epiphanie!!!

Peace out!

PS: The Lyric in yellow and Lola in red I love as well. *hint hint* family and friends!! πŸ˜›

hope · Ramblings · RANDOM · shopping

Hope Floats

On Saturday [yesterday] got my butt out of bed and got showered and got moving. Did my pedaler for 15 mins, while starting my book ‘T is for Trespass’, and then got Roger going so we could go together to Sam’s Club and Wally World. This used to be our ‘thing’ we did together every weekend up until a couple months ago. I stopped going. I would take my meds and veg out and send him on his own. Part of my new ‘me’ is to get back to the things I left behind. We always have fun together even if it is grocery shopping. I finally got him moving and went on our Saturday outing together again. It felt so good to get back to life.

Roger used to work out 3 times a week, and go MX riding on Sundays.

brrp brrp

He stopped all that the same time I gave in to my MS. I should have seen the signs, but I was to caught up in my poor me, pour me a drink attitude. I’m hoping that now, he will get back to it. Our house was much more calm when we were both in our ‘right’ minds! πŸ˜›

Hope you all have a fabulous Sunday. I am off to ‘pedal’ for a bit!!

Blessings and Hope!!

dreams · mindless-thoughts · Ramblings · shopping · shower · strength

In with a bang, out with a whimper…

This the story of my shower from

The Refresh $14,995
The Inspire $11,995

Yes, that is the prices of these fabulous showers. So, this is probably why they do not give you any kind of estimate over the phone. Most people would probably hang up, and quickly. Now, this does include any unforseeable issues like bad green-board and clean-up etc. But, what if there are no unforeseeable issues? Same price? Guess so. But wait, you can finance. So, let’s pay triple the amount for a shower. Woot woot. Shit no, sorry. It’s aΒ  shower for fuck’s sake and not even gold lined. Now maybe if it came with a hot towel boy…

So, my question, how the hell do people, crippled people and the elderly pay for these ‘high end’ showers. They most likely get ripped off and have to finance. Not many people have this kind of cash to just hand over.

Oh, but wait! If we ordered and signed within that day, 1,000.00 would be taken off. Well holy shit and slap my ass, then let’s do it!! NOT!!

So, needless to say, I was bummed. I cried for a bit, then got pissed at the highway robbery going on here. At 5pm, I took a Xanaflex and went to bed.

Now on to plan B. If that does not work then plan C, D, E etc. Whatever it takes.

We are going to go to Lowe’s and check out the shower enclosures. If we can find one without a seat or built in shelving in the back, we can get one like that. Then I found an awesome fold up teak handicapped shower chair that we can have installed along with some bars to help me in and out of the shower. Then get a new dual shower head with bar for the hand-held shower head that can slide up and down. It will not be as high tech, etc as the Premier Showers, but it will be just as good at a fraction of the cost.

So, my shower story continues. It will happen, just may take a bit longer than I want.

Life is good!

Blessings and Hope!

friendship · hope · joy · love · multiple sclerosis · shopping

MS Walk 2010 and The Light Fandango Candle Co.

MS Compassionate Candles

Most of you know I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis. My good friend, Lu, owns an amazing candle company .

This is her second annual fund raiser for my Walk on April 18th. [donations can be taken through May]

For 30.00 [which includes s/h] she is offering this awesome MS Compassionate Candle Basket. 2.00 from every purchase will go to my walk.

If purchasing candles of this quality in a store you would pay well over 40.00.

Her candles hold the scent and burn fabulously.

Tell her mztracy sent ya! β™₯

Blessings and Hope!

Celebration · hope · jewelry · mindless-thoughts · Ramblings · shopping

A Fabulous Flair’s new location

A Fabulous Flair is now back on Etsy!! It was my first home and it did me well! Don’t fix it if it ain’t broke! lol

Added some new things today and some old:

PinkyI will be adding new pieces weekly if I am able. I am very happy to be back on Etsy.

I still have my other site for my Recycles . Right now I have a gr8 beginners flute available with lots of accessories that go with it.


I want to wish a very happy 21st Birthday to Amanda Eldridge as well. So wish i could have been there to celebrate this day with you. Know that I was there in spirit!! Hope you had a couple of drinks for me!!

the BIG 21
The BIG 21


Also on a good note, I got my first Living Dead Doll, Jasper:

Jasper - Series 14

I know, I know, a bit creepy but so cool!! lol

Anywho, hope everyone is having a great day/evening wherever you may be!

Blessings and Hope!!