Periodically, I will keep discussing suicide. We need to let people know that it’s OK to talk about. We need to let people know they can contact us if they need help. ￼I’m hanging on to life with both hands try not to fall off.￼￼ It’s scary and my time is all screwed up right now.￼ I keep thinking it was a week ago Wednesday when in reality it was just last week. I’m also having some wickedly violent dreams. I will be discussing something to help me sleep with my neurologist on our call tomorrow. I did get 6 1/2 hours of good sleep last night and then fell back to sleep for three hours. For me that is some pretty good sleep.￼￼￼
I recognize the high I am on right now. I went through this high in 2018 when I called for help and they got me into rehab. The problem was I didn’t recognize the low that slowly crept in.￼￼ I will be researching some online and over the phone mental health clinics. I am going to pace myself so I do not burn out. I know this won’t be an easy road, but it’s one I have to stay on.￼
This is my suicide aftermath. Things are all catty wonky right now. I guess that’s to be expected.
Have courage and be kind.￼￼