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Happy Mother’s Day!!!

Tracy — Sun, 13 May 2012 16:53:17 +0000

sweet love

Wishing all the mommies, the fur-mommies, and the mommies who Mother everyone around them, A very Happy Mother’s day!

A special wish for those moms who have lost a child, sending Blessings to you!

Love and Light, Tracy

So, what’s on the agenda for today?

Tracy — Fri, 11 May 2012 15:27:20 +0000

Looks like it’s a DVR morning; Law and Order:SVU, Criminal Minds, Grey’s Anatomy. Then back to Netflix to get caught up o Supernatural!

Cutie pies!

Was up much too early this morning. Bleck 5:30 am comes too fast. We decided that I’ll get up when Roger leaves for work. This way he can get me up out of the bed so I do not have a repeat of yesterday. Did I mention, I HATE MS! We’re wondering if the sudden worsening of my legs etc. is due to stopping the Tysabri. Maybe my body is adjusting itself to not having the medication in my body. Hopefully it will level out soon.

If you need me, you can find me in my bed again. I’ll be the one with three dogs lying all over me. I’m off as my hands will not cooperate.

Have a fabulous day/night everyone!

xx, Tracy…

Down but NEVER out…

Tracy — Thu, 10 May 2012 17:44:50 +0000

Was hoping today would be better. The legs are better, no swelling. Sadly woke up this morning and had nothing. Couldn’t hardly move a muscle. Took me some time, but finally got my tush transferred to my chair. Now, I’m a skeered to try and transfer back to my bed. Falling is always a fear. I’ll eventually muster up the strength to get back in to my bed. I’ll never quit trying, mainly due the fact this chair is hurting my ass. Wish me luck!

hehe

Fuuuuuck, I’m so bored!!!

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite Quotes;

When the World says, “Give up.” Hope whispers, “Try it one more time!” – anonymous

I will always keep trying! Peace out! xx, Tracy

MS MS go away, don’t come again on any day!!

Tracy — Wed, 09 May 2012 16:01:44 +0000

Grrrrr, another day in bed. I was getting a couple of things ready to ship out and bam, leg pain. The swelling has gone down considerably, now the pain. So, do I work through the pain and chance the swelling coming back… or do I get my MS ass back in bed. YUP back in bed, legs elevated! Bleck!!!

I guess I should be grateful that the MS allowed me a full week of creating and being out of bed. But, I’m not. That week is now causing me to be down and out. Kind of uncool!! There it is, MS is UNCOOL!!

It took me almost 4 minutes just to get off the potty. Keep falling back while trying to pull up my pants. At least I didn’t pee-diddle myself! That’s a plus!

Now, I will try and find a good movie, get all the doggies in place on my/their bed, take some Norco and chillax…

Oh Happy happy joy joy!!

Y’all have a great one, if you need me I’m as close as my bed!!

Now, go buy my jewelry!!! lolol

And remember…

rofl, this be me!

Peace out!! xx,Tracy

Happy Anniversary to US!!

Tracy — Tue, 08 May 2012 20:32:03 +0000

On May 8, 1993 I married my best friend, Roger! 19 years and still in love! [most days ]

Awwww!!

It’s been a wild ride, but we have stood by each other through thick and thin.

My Love!

Being the nutters that we are, helps get us through the hard times. Always remember to never go to bed angry and always find a reason to laugh!

For this Anniversary we purchased matching rings from Blue Steel.

Love the black on silver

We can’t wait to get our rings and a few other pretties from there.

Today, is a good day. My body may not feel the best, but my heart is full!!

Peace!! xx, Tracy

Completely Random and, well, stupid!

Tracy — Mon, 07 May 2012 18:14:08 +0000

This just cracked me up. Thought I’d share!!

hahahaha Boobs!!

Warning: Pissy Bitch Alert!!!

Tracy — Sun, 06 May 2012 18:59:41 +0000

I know, what’s new?

Here’s the deal, I have pendants ready to be added to chains and crystals ready to added to that. Last night I made the prettiest cameo necklace and then realized the chain I used was antique copper and the pendant was antique brass. DOH! I spent so much time on it and was so discouraged… took pics, got em all ready, and went hmmm, doesn’t look right. Looked at hubby, threw my hands ups, and rolled back to my room. I think it was karma [or the Norco] as I should not be out at my table right now. My legs, left mostly, will not stop swelling up. I’ve been keeping them elevated and everything and they/it will not go down. HATE kankles!!! I do not want to tell my neuro because every time this has happened in the past, he sends me to the ‘Big House’ [hospital] for a 3 day IV Solumedrol vacation. I WILL NOT do steroids any more. Sorry!!

The worst part is the pain in my right shoulder going down my arm. After a few minutes at the design table the pain starts. Might be a tendon or something. Too scared to find out and no way to get to the doctor. It’s tough on Roger to take so much time off work for me, and not fair to him. I must say, I’m really loving my Norco right now.

My Precious!!!

What sucks is I cannot sleep on my left side, hip pain. I can’t sleep on my back, DD [degenerative disc] so, I have to sleep on my right side. Soooo not fair!! Someone cut me a break please!!

Yes, I’m having a “Pity Party”, and all are welcome!!

I’m just so tired of being sick and tired. This was not supposed to be my life. I know, it is, deal with it, right? Easier said than done. I’ve had people say that it happened to me because I am so strong. They say that if it had happened to them, they would have crumbled. Um, Thanks, I think. I’m really not as strong as some think…

On a lighter note… yes I know, Random! A little funny for your day/night:

Classic! rofl

Or, as the Fabulous Vicki would say…A good day is when I don’t roll over and crunch someone’s toes!! Click on her name and visit her blog, it’s awesome!!

Peace Out!! xx

Baa hahahahaaaaa HA!

Tracy — Sat, 05 May 2012 20:31:18 +0000

Cannot figure out why I’m so ‘giddy’ today after the not-so-great news I got from my doctor yesterday. I think I am finally losing it… Funny how losing it feels kind of good.

Picture in your head, Tom Hanks, Money Pit, bathtub falling through floor losing it!!

And now a grammar lesson. If you can’t find something, you lose it. If something is not tight it’s, loose. Lose, losing, loose, loosening. I know random… Damn, hope I’m right!!

xx, Tracy…

Another Med Bites the Dust… Hey Hey!

Tracy — Fri, 04 May 2012 22:54:20 +0000

Figures, right? Another med bites the dust. I was really beginning to think this one may be the one. Not so much, My liver count went up more, 3rd month in a row, so now the Tysabri will stop. Wonder when the next miracle drug will come out? **insert sarcasm…

figures…

Why I tried it in the first place is beyond me. It’s mainly for RRMS [relapsing-remitting] not for PPMS [primary-progressive]. That’ll teach me to think a new med will work for me. Now we’ll see what the new game plan is; new med, try it again later. I have taught myself NEVER to get my hopes up, sadly this time I did not listen. I feel like I’m mourning a death of some kind. The death of a new beginning? I don’t know… Hopefully if I try another ‘miracle’ drug it will utilize my port. roflmao Now what… do I have it removed, keep it in just in case? Again, I don’t know. Not sure how many more medication let-downs my heart can take. It’s been six thus far. Fuuuuuuuuck, fuck, fuck!!

Not quite sure what to do with myself… hmmm my bed looks comfy…

Peace out! xx

Spending the day in bed…wanna join me?

Tracy — Tue, 01 May 2012 17:39:38 +0000

Believe me, it’s not as glamorous as it seems. Now, if I had Gerard Butler fanning me and feeding me chocolate covered strawberries, that would be okay!!

Hello Gerard!!

The reality is not so lovely. Hubby says no design table or being out in the front until my legs stop swelling. I know he’s right, but I’m not happy about it. My mind is clear, but my body is in pain. This is when it sucks to be me. Mentally I can do anything, but when the body won’t cooperate it’s no bueno! There are only so many movies to watch and books to read. I’ve heard it said that only boring people are bored. SORRY, but that is bullshit! My boredom comes from my MS and being trapped in my own body. In my mind I can get up and go, my body says nope!

It’s during these times when I have to find my inner strength so I don’t fall into a deep depression. Finding it sometimes is a hard thing to do. Eventually, it shows up…

So, here I am in bed, with my MAC [only link to the outside world], my TV, and 3 of my fur-babies lying all over me. I guess I should be happy…they are actually sharing THEIR bed with me!

xx, Tracy...